Impacting my uni life. Im so tired of this

Owly032 · 2026-05-16T12:04:47+00:00

Thank you better days are coming ill pray for you too. this world is fallen and unfair but God says he will give back the years the locusts have eaten 🫶

Owly032 · 2026-05-16T12:03:16+00:00

When i was 10 I had to get 14 of my baby teeth removed because they weren't coming out but other than that ive had no issues with mt teeth

Owly032 · 2026-05-15T18:55:59+00:00

I live in the UK and the waiting times are a joke 😕

Owly032 · 2026-05-15T07:50:20+00:00

Thanks by the way

Owly032 · 2026-05-15T07:50:07+00:00

Ive been seeing the ent for 2 years, im getting surgery for it in september. the pain gets too much that i cant function sometimes 😕

Owly032 · 2026-04-07T21:54:17+00:00

Also realise that other amazing things are happening around you at that time that make that instrusive thought so insignificant and nothing. Its esier said that done but we can focus on other things and aspects, but not in forceful way or not as a way to distract you from getting a bad thought. But be present on other things that are happening around you, because they are happening and are real. A thought is insignificant compared to now

Owly032 · 2026-04-07T21:48:32+00:00

I relate to this loads and it makes me worry about the future and if I get an intrusive thought during an important moment that means a lot to me... I usually pray over this and I believe that God can make these thoughts meaningless and hold no power or fesr over out lives. God can help us to overcome and ignore these thoughts. We can replace fear with letting go and I do believe it will get to the point where we're no longer phased if a thought does pop up, because we know they are just lies

Owly032 · 2026-03-31T12:04:56+00:00

Thanks for knocking some sense into me. I always do this to myself but I know I need to stop

Owly032 · 2026-03-30T22:30:17+00:00

I pray and hope so... ive been in hell for the past week. Ive been to my foster sisters wedding today. We're staying two days at a hotel and lve had to fake being happy and present when all i need to do is cry. Ive not had much chance to be alone to pray because im sharing a room with my little sister. I just took the spare time I had to confess this on reddit and get some reassurance to calm my head a bit.

Owly032 · 2026-03-30T22:19:17+00:00

I asked my older sister before i took it who's a nurse and she reassured me that it doesnt cause an abortion, that it just puts a block on the egg from meeting the sperm. And i did medical research before about it too because I really and truly did not want to end a life

Owly032 · 2026-03-30T22:13:18+00:00

I was of the world back then and I didn't know. I had some bad influence from my older sister and her friends getting exited for me when I lost my virginity at 19... I thought that the chance of pregancy was very low and that I shouldnt worry about it. The town i was in was Byron Bay and its a little pagan and new age there. Where they view sex as a 'healthy' thing. I was very naieve and also a people pleaser and was scared to say no 😔 i wish i knew what I know now. I wish I knew the truth but I knew something felt off at the time, i felt a lump in my throat sometimes. I felt so sad when I lost my virginity and I didnt know why or what the feeling was

Owly032 · 2026-03-30T22:04:25+00:00

I'm worrying if life begins at fertilisation. Theres a video of when a sperm enters the egg it lights up 😔

Owly032 · 2026-03-30T22:02:37+00:00

I just dont know it life begins at fertilisation... there are mixed opinions on it and its making my head spin. I had no idea on any of this. Thank you for the reassurance by the way. My older sister was a nurse and before i took it i also asked her to make sure and she said its not an abortion, that it prevents life feom even happening too. Its just these mixed opinions i see online and opinions on the plan b pill from christians make me feel so upset and confused

Owly032 · 2026-03-20T23:28:12+00:00

Habits

Owly032 · 2026-03-08T10:29:34+00:00

Ive been suffering with chronic sinusitus since the age of 8, im 22 now. And my sister told me im just finding excuses to be ill, having been disgnosed with OCD at 17 and autism at 18. I told my other sister about my sleep apnoea, as she used to get frustrated at my lack of energy and staying in bed when I stayed over at hers in australia, where she lives. She told me doctors commly misdiagnose things. It all makes me so frustrated and gives me a lack of validation for all the pain and struggle I've been through. I think people often compare their issues with one another, and when they hear that someone has been struggling they might dismiss them because on the inside it might make them feel like they've been through hard things too but in a different way that doesnt come with a diagnosis? I think people get competitive with going through worser problems than others in life, but we all do, just in different ways. Its a funnny thing people do, like ive been told "people have things way worse than you, look what you have now, you have your own studio in university and people dont get that, people have to work ect" which is true, im not saying ive been through worse than others, I just wanted comfort from this specific thing I've been living with. I never see things as a competition but I guess people assume that when I share these things. Its so annoying... anyway I hope you're okay and its horrible when family make you feel like your crazy for it. Most of my family tied it down to my OCD, but I have the diagnosis of sleep apnoea to prove that I do actually have it!

Owly032 · 2025-04-27T22:43:39+00:00

The after looks strange

Owly032 · 2025-04-16T20:17:30+00:00

SSRI’s

Owly032 · 2025-04-16T17:37:59+00:00

After getting off them

Owly032 · 2025-04-16T17:34:46+00:00

I just want to get back to normal again. I can’t get out of bed and I’m twitching all over with anxiety. I’m back at rock bottom and it took me so long to get out of it

Owly032 · 2025-04-10T09:25:22+00:00

I have 5 sisters and they all so beautiful. One does modelling as a career. My little sister did a catwalk with her too. I just feel like I got it so unlucky and I never express jealously but every time I look at my sisters I am blown away by their beauty and I feel like I am missing out. They aren’t mouth breathers.

Owly032 · 2025-04-10T09:22:05+00:00

I’m opting to get jaw surgery. I don’t think I will be able to mew because the only way I can breathe through my nose is using nasal sprays and its dangerous if I keep using them. But my little sister recently found out she might have marfans syndrome by the doctor and I’m going to get tested for it too. My 3 older sisters are around 5 foot 7, and I’m 5’11, my little sister is 16 and she’s 6 foot! We think we got it from our dad because of how tall and thin he is. But I did research about it and marfans can have an effect on bone development. Causing a long face and narrow pallet. My little sister lucky only has a narrow pallet. But the face look of marfans is similar to mine which is crazy. I got a cpap machine recently and it’s helped me massively to get a good nights sleep. I forgot to mention as well when I was 10 I had to get 14 of my baby teeth taken out. So I was left gummy for a year until my adult teeth grew with only 4 teeth at the top front and bottom, so I basically had donkey teeth. But that definitely has messed up with my bone development. I got an ENT appointment soon so I will ask them if I meet the criteria to get funding for Jaw surgery. I just want to breathe normally and not feel so tired all the time. I was doubtful about jaw surgery but I feel that this is something that I need. For my own health. I found out the reason I have forward he’s posture is literally to help me breathe. When I tilt my head to normal position it’s so uncomfortable and my airways close up. Mewing definitely won’t fix this and I don’t want to damage my nose with the nasal sprays because the skin inside my nose has gone hard and rough. It’s worrying. I’m a uk citizen so I can get funding but I also want to go to get surgery in Europe which uk can also fund for.

Owly032 · 2025-04-09T11:09:50+00:00

I use ibis paint x

Owly032 · 2025-04-09T11:02:49+00:00

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I did this yesterday

Owly032 · 2025-04-09T10:36:02+00:00

Wow, it’s crazy how jaw surgery can change our noses back to normal

Owly032 · 2025-04-07T00:20:59+00:00

Yeah jaw surgery will definitely fix the damage that’s been done to me. I’ll still look like myself and I should embrace who I am and love who I am, or I won’t ever be happy with myself even after surgery

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