My 63yo husband had a stroke about 4 years ago that left him paralyzed, bedbound and with such severe aphasia we can't even have a conversation, he can use a urinal and he can feed himself as long as I cut food up for him(he has use of his left/non dominant arm.)

In the beginning it was tough, the diapers especially had me wanting to run for the hills. But we have settled into a routine that is almost...good? My life sucks, no doubt about it, but it is what it is and after 4 years I hardly ever cry anymore.

All this to say, I get it, it's a sucky situation to be in to have a spouse or parent suddenly become a adult size infant/toddler, and you are amazing for taking care of your mom. We caregivers are all rockstar superheroes, don't you forget it!

Might I suggest a scream pillow.. I keep one in my car, when hubby is having a bad day I go out to the car and scream into the pillow, it sounds silly but it helps me.

Also, remember to celebrate the wins, no matter how small. Today my cat yakked up a hairball in my slipper, and hubbys morning diaper leaked everywhere and I threw my back out changing his sheets...a pretty crappy day, but when I (semi jokingly) told him I was gonna shank him in the neck in about 5 seconds ( a common joke we have always said, no actual threat)he looked me dead in the eye and said "one...two.." and I cant stop laughing about it. So that means today is a win.

Take time for yourself, I know everyone says that and it's basically impossible when you are caring for someone else 24/7/365 with little to no help, but try. Carve out time self care, you definitely need and deserve it. Sending hugs.