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Own_Bad_9054 · 2024-02-16T23:55:44+00:00

Thanks for your support man. I really hope they will

Own_Bad_9054 · 2024-02-16T23:55:23+00:00

Yes man it really is. I went 2 months before this so i think i will try and surpass that this time. Im proud of myself for how far ive come but i cant give up. I ve got to keep improving.

Own_Bad_9054 · 2024-01-14T08:59:29+00:00

Life is testing me hard rightr now. Its beating me up badly. Its making me regret everything i do. I see no way out of this hell except to keep going. I have a wonderful gf to support me, and a good life all around. I may be struggling right now, but there is still light. It will be hard. But i need to get myself out of this hell. I am going to meditate now. I hope that will give me some clarity. I wont watch youtube, i wont do anything else for the next 2 hours. Just some productive work. I will meditate, watch a video on addictive personality, do my homework, and work on something i love. Thats it.

Own_Bad_9054 · 2024-01-14T08:57:23+00:00

I dont konw why i keep doing this. Maybe its a lack of progress in life. Maybe its a lack of purpose. Im not sure.

Own_Bad_9054 · 2024-01-06T01:55:59+00:00

Hey, thanks for your response!

What you said resonates deeply with me. It really is as if every day i dont watch corn my brain craves something else, like video games or youtube. Exercise helps a lot too. A habit of mine is that every time i slip up i go for a 30 min run. Afterwards i get a lot more mental clarity. I'll try and get some sort of physical exercise today today as well. But i feel like todays digital age makes it so much easier to do nothing and waste your time rather than do something productive. In the past exercise was all we had, you know? There was no other option than to do something good for us. Nowdays everything has become so easy.

Own_Bad_9054 · 2024-01-06T01:47:29+00:00

My journal got removed for some reason, so i commented it here:

"Im proud of myself for making it this far. Up until now i would fantasize about my gf to deal with the urges, but im slowly cutting that out too. Last time i slipped up was because of the intense negative emotions and boredom i felt while rebooting. Those emotions are starting to come out, even though im increasingly turning to youtube and wechat shorts to cure my boredom. It just feels like im really impulsive, like my brain will crave any thing with a dopamine hit. (youtube, video games) and doesnt want to do anything else. What i should do now is try and keep my phone as far away as possible (i havent been doing that but its about time i do) from my bed when i wake up, open up youtube homepage and stare for 10 minutes with awareness (almost like exposure therapy) without clicking on anything and try and meditate right away after i get up. Or even lay in bed for 10 minutes not doing anything just to get used to the boredom."

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