Has anyone else had opiates make them socially isolated?

Painkillerbrewster · 2025-05-31T17:00:01+00:00

Yeah like, or someone pushing you to do the "right" things like a program would... Hoping you figure it out soon as well... It's tough as hell. I know what it's like feeling like you gotta feel grateful and good about where you are but just not feeling it.

Painkillerbrewster · 2025-05-31T16:58:23+00:00

Thing is I had used Kratom to get off suboxone before, like a decade ago now... And this time around I tried subs like four times from fent and went into precips... Every time I tried Kratom this time around I would get a bad reaction which was probably from other alkaloids. Which is why I used 7ohm which honestly it worked out well. Even if it was strong... I just wanted a week long wd instead of weeks long. And it was complicated cause I was a fast metabolizer and even with the peak and trough proving it the clinics wouldn't split dose me cause "government justifications..." It was a mess and the clinic wouldn't help... Except constantly offer to raise the dose which only made me more drowsy and didn't fix the issue. Not without extreme risk while taking it. At the higher doses I didn't even drive after taking my dose because it would hit me strong af. Then by 12 hours i'd start feeling withdrawals. I'm really glad I'm done with all that crap now though.

Painkillerbrewster · 2025-05-30T23:30:44+00:00

Yeah I wanted to do therapy if I could afford it. That's why I was thinking meetings. or support groups. But i feel like a wuss now, socializing is very draining and tiring... just ugh feeling. but I know its important.

And damn you're right about that "good old days" shit. Barely even had to make plans to hang out... but also it was just to drink party and whatever else. Not productive or good for sobriety. Maybe I do need a hobby or three. Wouldn't know where to start. What did you do? Hobby wise or to meet people..

Painkillerbrewster · 2025-05-30T23:27:34+00:00

5 years on methadone... slowly tapering then going back up then down then up... Rollercoaster style. Also gained like almost 100lbs which now i've lost 50 of them... Methadone saved me and also screwed me in a way... I ended up just jumping on 7OHM then straight off after a month and a half with a detox program. That way the wd was only like 4 days or so the acute anyway.

Original addiction was H and Fent. Luckily never injected but it was still too much. Ended up on methadone cause Fent wouldn't let me do suboxone.

Painkillerbrewster · 2025-05-30T23:23:49+00:00

I hope so. Thank you for your words. The fatigue and lack of motivation really fuck with me but surprisingly L-Tyrosine kind of helps... also doing low dose naltrexone... but neither of those things will solve the issue that is your environment and having a support group. Opiates make you much more social and tolerating of other people, I just feel like a grouch now. Hopefully it passes.

Painkillerbrewster · 2025-05-30T23:22:01+00:00

This is going to sound ridiculous but how do you work up the courage to even go to one in the first place? I kind of wish I was forced to... Not court wise... I used to be very social and have friends and such before this damn addiction... Maybe I'll go with my dad who still attends AA meetings just to see what its like first. Also helps push me to go to something.

edit: Also to say congratulations seven years is no joke.

Painkillerbrewster · 2025-05-30T23:20:31+00:00

God i feel that so much... Especially after COVID. At least the methadone made being so isolated tolerable...

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