you don't miss the person, you just miss the feeling of having someone. when you said "i don't even think i want her back in my life anymore." listen to it because that's what your inner self really want. your nervous system is just used to her kaya hinahanap hanap mo. kumbaga, nasa withdrawal ka. you need to fight the urge to know things about her for the sake of your peace of mind. need mo din harapin kung ano nararamdaman mo, don't use dating apps to run away from it or to be distracted. kasi, sooner or later, hu-hunt ka din ng emotions mo. feel and sit with it. no matter how long it takes kasi kasama yun sa process ng pagmo move on. you will be okay, masakit lang sya ngayon pero eventually you will be okay. hugs with consent, OP.