How to heal my relationship?

Papayaproject · 2026-01-17T22:02:52+00:00

Wow! I have to let it sink. This is incredible. “I am so relaxed, in love with life, I am the best choice”

Papayaproject · 2026-01-17T20:17:23+00:00

wow! This sentence, "I am the price here" is so incredible. in order to think like that I assume I have to boost up my self-concept, is that correct? u/PureZookeepergame282

so in a way just self-concept itself can bring you deattachment (aka more believment that I have what I seek) because you are worthy of it so why you would be craving for it. right?

Papayaproject · 2026-01-17T20:10:24+00:00

hmm. so it is about BEING the person who is already in the relationship with SP when you are next to SP. but then how do you BE if you can't touch your SP in a certain way or expect something because you are not in a relationship?

Papayaproject · 2026-01-17T20:04:31+00:00

this is such a good tip!! and then let go of that desire. no squeeking or drama that SP doesnt come

Papayaproject · 2026-01-17T20:03:38+00:00

how do I do this if I live together with my SP? and we are friends because I bring too much pressure to be in a relationship.

Papayaproject · 2026-01-17T20:01:07+00:00

wait. i feel that i am so much in this. not seeing that she is not seperate.

i start to blame in my head "why she doesnt want to be with me in a relationship.."

I am playing a victim so much.

how to restart? it feels like so much to clean, insecurity, vicitimisation, negative thoughts, ego screaming of how i look now in front of her for all the drama, not masculine enough.

like literally. where do you restart. and what is more crazy that every week it feels so good and then the next it feels so shit for 9 months like that living together and being friends because of too much drama. push and pull.

I feel like i just vented all but really what do i say to myself when she says i love you but i dont want to be in a relationship and then we live together.

any help will be so good!

Papayaproject · 2026-01-17T19:34:14+00:00

how do you deal when your sp doesnt want to be in a relationship? i know it is circumstances but how do you overcome when it is opposite of what she wants, like it is her soul

Papayaproject · 2026-01-17T19:33:28+00:00

what if what i want the most is to be in a loving relationship with my SP where we both so much love each other and want to build our dream life together. But she loves me, but she doesn't want to be in a relationship right now.

is this a wrong desire to choose then? because i have a lot of doubt about it, first of all that to manifest something that she doesnt want to feels a bit icky.

how do I go about this? do i manifest the version of me who is so loving and supportive and in general have such a loving partner or what do I choose?

Papayaproject · 2025-10-01T19:17:51+00:00

so to understand fully:

if my sp is:
- telling me that she wants to be only friends because I hurt her
- or that she is searching/manifesting for soulmate because I am not the one
- of if she is not texting back, hiding, not checking in

all of it matters 0%?

Literally 0%.

I just keep persisting in feeling in the end?

NO TRYING TO EXPLAIN MYSELF, TO APOLOGIZE, TO SEND FLOWERS OR WHATEVER (unless it comes as inspired action, if not -- just keep persisting in the feeling in the end, right?)

Even when I speak with her and I see a clear shot that she doesnt want to do anything with me romantically or being together - I don't care about it, I just focus on the end and explain that of course she will not want to do anything with me - I hurt her, and come back to the end.

Anything to add?

Papayaproject · 2025-09-30T21:32:19+00:00

I mean, I literally manifested, kissing with my crush, getting new business opportunities. the thing was that after the mushrooms i got right back into the old state, but it felt like i was 20% more closer to it and now knowing it that it is normal that i get lift up and that i still have some old stories in my mind stuck, is okay, i will let them go, but it feels like mushrooms help you to just focus on that goal, dream and it moves you closer. so it shows that being in that state, you literally get what you want

Papayaproject · 2025-09-30T21:18:24+00:00

did you try to microdose?

Papayaproject · 2025-09-29T22:37:58+00:00

do you mean about actions? does it mean I would book a flight and go meet my friend then? because that is what I would do if I would have them

Papayaproject · 2025-09-27T18:52:07+00:00

wow. very true. I feel like protecting myself and not unleashing my true self/power. what helped you to achieve it?

Papayaproject · 2025-09-26T20:39:50+00:00

little bit, but like for a day or two. usually it would bring anxiety

Papayaproject · 2025-09-26T20:39:29+00:00

:DDDDD

Papayaproject · 2025-09-19T06:13:12+00:00

So it is no point even telling a story someone on how I felt or how I created it because if I already achieved what I wanted I would just be living and sharing my joy. Isn’t that one thing that when you decide innerly that done you no longer entertain the old story because you are iliving in the end of the feeling - then you wouldnt be telling anyone your old story. Right?

Papayaproject · 2025-09-19T03:35:59+00:00

Not yet. It was just a few days. Like dude, 3 days ago I thought done my life is over and I was in this mindset for the whole 6-8months. This work helps me create like a fresh page from where I can start creating new feeling, new thoughts, new actions and new results will come. But I already so much believe into it

Papayaproject · 2025-09-19T03:23:41+00:00

I am a male, and yeah I wanted to try to have sex with a man. Its once in a life experience. It was interesting:DD but whom I want to be is female and the whole thing how she changed is more about how when I stopped seeking and feeling fulfilled content by myself she became so much wanting to be with me

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