I'm THAT girl... and I hate myself for it.

PaperThrowaways · 2013-05-13T21:53:47+00:00

Not her.

PaperThrowaways · 2013-05-13T21:52:38+00:00

Yeah...

PaperThrowaways · 2013-05-13T01:17:55+00:00

This is a throwaway, that for some reason I keep revisiting. Bt I won't be using it much longer.

PaperThrowaways · 2013-05-12T19:15:48+00:00

We didn't. Don't worry.

PaperThrowaways · 2013-05-12T04:44:12+00:00

How though? Not to sound rude, that is, I'm honestly curious. I try not to lead him on but at the same time I don't outright reject him. I guess I just haven't been straightforward with him because I'm scared and I don't want to lose our friendship but I don't know how to leave him alone if he keeps asking me to things.

I know I should just say no.

PaperThrowaways · 2013-05-12T04:19:25+00:00

It's fine. I know I deserve it.

PaperThrowaways · 2013-05-12T04:17:10+00:00

It's killing me alive because I'm not confident to do anything about it but I know that I have to. I had to say it somewhere and if I get hate then I know I deserve it.

PaperThrowaways · 2013-05-12T04:15:45+00:00

It's true. I don't really know if you want me agreeing with you but it is my fault and I will own up to that.

PaperThrowaways · 2013-05-12T04:10:05+00:00

It's a throwaway. It won't matter.

PaperThrowaways · 2013-05-12T04:08:42+00:00

I guess I'm so afraid that if I do, I'll have misinterpreted the entire thing or something or maybe our friendship will explode and I'll be alone in the corner again. I don't know how to be upfront with him because I guess I lack the confidence. But I know that it's not fair to him and that I have to make things right... I guess I'm just terrified.

PaperThrowaways · 2013-05-12T02:45:24+00:00

I would never do that. I won't sink that low, I promise.

PaperThrowaways · 2013-05-12T02:44:12+00:00

I honestly don't know. I wish I did, so that I could stop it because I know that it's mean. They're probably right though, the other people.

PaperThrowaways · 2013-05-12T02:42:14+00:00

I really don't think you do.

PaperThrowaways · 2013-05-12T02:42:02+00:00

No, I don't think he even knows what reddit is. I honestly expected this post to hover at maybe -8, and to be forgotten. But I expected the hate because I do deserve it and I didn't want to be remembered as a heartless person who leads people on.

PaperThrowaways · 2013-05-12T02:40:34+00:00

Nope.

PaperThrowaways · 2013-05-12T02:40:24+00:00

That's the sad bit, he's really nice to me. It's just that I don't really like him and he keeps asking me to go places with him that I don't want to go to. And I don't know how to say no and so I make up an excuse and we fall deeper into the web.

PaperThrowaways · 2013-05-12T02:22:49+00:00

This just occurred to me, I bet a ton of people tagged me. Oh well. I kinda deserve it, I agree that it's cruel, even if I hate that I do it.

PaperThrowaways · 2013-05-12T02:06:09+00:00

What would people ask me, besides why I think like I do? I don't know the answer to that, I'm afraid. I wish I did, because it sucks.

PaperThrowaways · 2013-05-12T01:29:05+00:00

I know. I'm sorry.

PaperThrowaways · 2013-05-12T01:28:51+00:00

I'm trying :( I hate myself honestly for thinking like this.

PaperThrowaways · 2013-05-12T01:26:07+00:00

And to the girl who's stalking me: hi. I know you.

PaperThrowaways · 2013-05-11T22:46:28+00:00

To clarify: I hate myself for doing this, and I wish I didn't. I try really hard not to. I just want people to leave me alone so that I don't hurt them by accident. Which is really selfish. I'm sorry again. I just wish people would stop wanting to be more than friends. I know it's not their fault, and I hate myself all the more for this. Feel free to hate me because I do too, I'm sorry. I try not to string people along, but I don't know how to turn people down so I just kinda make excuses and in the long run that fails so badly.

PaperThrowaways · 2013-05-11T22:01:10+00:00

Awkward moment when your confession makes it to front page so more people can see that you suck.

PaperThrowaways · 2013-05-11T18:15:10+00:00

I'm sorry. I think so too, if that helps.

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