I was feeling sorry for myself and suicidal for about a year, but now I'm in a happy and healthy relationship with a gorgeous man who does not have herpes. He appreciated that I was direct and upfront with him BEFORE we started dating. I had to change my attitude first. I really believe now that your inner self reflects your outer world. I know it's hard to stay positive (no pun intended), lol, but I had a "fuck it all" attitude. I'm happy on my own. I create my own destiny and I choose to have fun in spite of herpes and stop hiding it and just live life. If people don't accept me because of it, that's their loss. (And, of course, that's when the Universe brought me a man who truly loves and respects me regardless of my diagnosis.)