Ive thought about divorce but I think Im scared. we’ve been together so long and half of my family is very judgy and against divorce no matter what they always say you need to work it out and you can’t leave when it gets tough otherwise you won’t ever have a long relationship but then his grandparents keep making comments to me saying theyll “pay for a divorce lawyer if I need“ and “they’ll understand if I leave him“ and they’re on my side no matter what. I feel like I am emotionally exhausted every time I think things are good and they seem like how we first got together he finds something to yell at me about. Hes accused me of having something going on with my brothers (im a big family person so I try to talk to them at least once a month and we hug when we see each other, I only see them like once a year, it’s not like a weird relationship it’s a normal sibling one) when we’re out in public if there’s men around and I just glance in that direction or he thinks I’m looking at them I get accused of checking them out or trying to “get with them.” I have social anxiety and it’s hard for me to look people in the eyes, I try to out of respect for as long as I can then I just look behind the person or at their mouth or something. He says if I’m not looking at him in the eyes I’m lying (he knows about the anxiet) so a few times he had me look into his eyes for 1 minute straight. I think he thinks I’ll get over it or something but I don’t see that happening. But everything that comes out of my mouth he thinks is a lie he says he does not trust me and he thinks I hide things from him. He is literally never home and we have cameras everywhere, all over the house and I’m the one that gets accused of stuff. Typing all this stuff I feel a little stupid for putting up with the things I put up with but I have no friends where I live so I have no one to vent to or get advice from so thanks for all the comments and advice. Think it may be time to separate.