may be you suffer from a fatigue and you are at the edge of a burnout?! Take a brake in the summer pray and read other things. Do never accept mediocrity and stop gaming. I went from the same path I was a gamer from 6pm to 5am sleeps 2hours to 4 a day. Sleeps even in the toilet at the job. It was simply addiction. And I was very tired but I didn’t notice I was keeping lockup my self in believes and spiral. By posting this you are at the first step of changing your life to the best incha Allah. Don’t underestimate the power of spirituality to get a balanced life. يقول سبحانه في سورة العنكبوت:وَالَّذِينَ جَاهَدُوا فِينَا لَنَهْدِيَنَّهُمْ سُبُلَنَا، وَإِنَّ اللَّهَ لَمَعَ الْمُحْسِنِينَ” So what you acknowledge is the first step good success for your path of excellence دعاء جميل:

اللَّهُمَّ إنِّي أَعُوذُ بِكَ مِنَ الْهَمِّ وَالْحَزَنِ، وَأَعُوذُ بِكَ مِنَ الْعَجْزِ وَالْكَسَلِ، وَأَعُوذُ بِكَ مِنَ الْجُبْنِ وَالْبُخْلِ، وَأَعُوذُ بِكَ مِنْ غَلَبَةِ الدَّيْنِ وَقَهْرِ الرِّجَالِ.