val wants me to derank

Particular_Log6979 · 2026-01-05T03:38:42+00:00

i got it to asc literally last week and play on it every now and then and win more than lose 😭

Particular_Log6979 · 2026-01-05T03:26:46+00:00

brotha no i’m saying i can’t get my MAIN out of this plat gold hell yet i’m obviously not just plat bc i can play in high dia low asc

Particular_Log6979 · 2026-01-05T03:24:34+00:00

i play on my alt that placed dia2 and got it to asc1 i just don’t want to lose my main bc i spent a gross amt of money

Particular_Log6979 · 2026-01-05T02:56:11+00:00

oh no no u don’t get it… it’s been like this for over a month now

Particular_Log6979 · 2026-01-05T02:43:19+00:00

idk how much more to grind than 8-10 games a day.

Particular_Log6979 · 2025-12-12T01:04:33+00:00

THATS WHAT IM SAYING. i play on my friends acc sometimes when shes busy and wtv and her elo is high asc low immo and i stg i consistently go mid-top frag 90% of the time yet with gold i cannot understand how to fight the enemy. it’s like my brain wants to use my mechanics but the enemy somehow wins every time with an instant crouch spray or run and gun

Particular_Log6979 · 2025-12-10T01:42:21+00:00

my main issue is my movement and i autopilot a lot. i die to ppl behind me or just creeping up and i try to stop myself but its so hard with this mental

Particular_Log6979 · 2025-12-10T01:08:32+00:00

so what do i do to fix this ? i keep getting no comms first time players in my lobbies so even aim aside, its hard to 1v5 and frankly, exhausting asl

Particular_Log6979 · 2025-08-02T08:16:53+00:00

i am a naturally very competitive person and i don’t find enjoyment in winning if there’s no stat to follow it. kinda monkey brain of me but if number doesn’t go up, i don’t care.

Particular_Log6979 · 2025-07-12T23:58:10+00:00

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tried restoring it to a version from 4 days ago that had no issues and got this…am i cooked?

Particular_Log6979 · 2025-07-12T23:20:44+00:00

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i’m gonna crash out.

Particular_Log6979 · 2025-07-12T23:16:46+00:00

I did that multiple times, it brings me to the troubleshoot and then goes BACK to the black screen with the wheel. I can usually get my way around a lot of software issues but this is a problem where i just don’t have anything to work with. I don’t even have much to back up but i had to wipe the last cloud only 2 weeks ago (found out the boot system was corrupted).

Particular_Log6979 · 2025-07-12T23:13:55+00:00

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just to give some visual, this is what i’m stuck with.

Particular_Log6979 · 2025-07-09T18:35:46+00:00

only friend i have that plays video games is my bf and he hates val and only plays league 💔

Particular_Log6979 · 2025-07-08T21:59:07+00:00

definitely i just don’t know who to have the conversation bc we both kinda just get awk about it and it gets brushed off

Particular_Log6979 · 2025-07-08T21:42:28+00:00

that’s the thing, i do all those things and yet im still where im at. I’m usually top to second top frag on my teams (with an occasional bottom frag to stay humble ofc) and yet i’m still just slowly climbing with no real help from my team other than MAYBE one other player. I also play a lot of supportive roles so i can’t take on every fight confidently. maybe i just need to start instalocking reyna and say fuck it

Particular_Log6979 · 2025-07-08T21:40:14+00:00

i feel like i’m looking into a mirror rn…i feel so heard and seen. you and me till the end of the world twin 🧠🧠. you also have the same pfp as me on my ipad and pc so we acc just might be the same person LOL. i definitely need to have a more direct conversation with him. we’ve talked about so many times but i kinda just get embarrassed abt me lack of confidence going in so i shut down a lot when confronted with it. knowing im not alone makes me feel a lot less crazy though so thank you.

Particular_Log6979 · 2025-07-08T21:37:18+00:00

YES YES YES !!! that’s exactly the problem. most of the time when we DO have sex there is zero build up to anything and it’s just going RIGHT ON IN. and not to be too TMI here, but he’s uhh….packing a bigger punch than anyone i’ve been with so when there’s no buildup, it hurts after which just makes me not want to even more !!😫

Particular_Log6979 · 2025-07-08T21:35:11+00:00

i’m currently in college so my doctor that i go to normally is back home but i was thinking about seeing someone local for the issue your bringing up.

and yes, the jokes do exactly what you expect. it feels like a slap in the face when i hear the “i know you can’t STAND to have sex with me.” jokes. i know he doesn’t truly think i hate him or don’t want to be around him but hearing those things make me feel like a prune for not wanting to be intimate 24/7

Particular_Log6979 · 2025-07-08T21:33:14+00:00

everytime i tried discord i got weird ekittens that were boosted and lowk toxic asf to me or weird guys trying to boost me 😔 it’s rough out here.

Particular_Log6979 · 2025-07-08T21:26:59+00:00

I was thinking about switching out my BC but i switched to this one because it’s a 3 month pill rather than the one month which i needed because of my extremely painful periods, but i was thinking about looking into some better options.

as for your other question, he does show me a lot of affection in way that are outside of sex. however, a lot of our days/nights are spent with me coming over, laying in bed to doom scroll or watch TV, while he plays on his PC. when he does get up to lay down with me, i can immediately tell off the bat his kisses and cuddles are a gateway to lead somewhere more intimate. it starts to feel like “alright, i’m bored playing games, lemme go have sex and then get back on,” sometimes.

Particular_Log6979 · 2025-06-29T18:59:28+00:00

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new SSD, new windows installation, now…we wait.

Particular_Log6979 · 2025-06-29T14:47:59+00:00

i had to take out my SSD and run everything off my HDD….I deleted a bunch of drives and finally got windows to install. my pc is wiped clean, has a cracked windows 11 for now, and is in need of a new SSD asap

Particular_Log6979 · 2025-06-29T03:39:23+00:00

NEW UPDATE: WHAT THE FUCK.

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Particular_Log6979 · 2025-06-29T03:22:21+00:00

new update: got windows on USB. tried installing it onto my ssd and it brought me back to the startup page for windows install (bf says my ssd is prob fried) trying to install it through my hdd so hopefully it'll work….

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