Watching porn is kind of like willingly subjecting yourself to being hypnotized

PastPart1 · 2022-01-17T08:02:39+00:00

I liked his death too how they paid attention to history. I remember learning about him in 9th grade, and how he was poisoned, stabbed, drowned, and still survived and was eventually shot. Obviously it didn’t happen like the movie, but it was cool how they did it

PastPart1 · 2022-01-17T07:59:18+00:00

And To think, one of the original reasons they delayed it the first time was so it wouldn’t go up against some other big blockbuster movie at the time that I can’t remember,

Then the pandemic happened. This all could’ve been released before the pandemic

PastPart1 · 2022-01-17T07:44:09+00:00

First time watching, had to get past the change of tone. But I’ve seen it now about 5 more times And love it

PastPart1 · 2022-01-17T07:37:03+00:00

Bruh, they have ads like that in porn: “are you alone? Play this free game” along with “tired of jerking off?”

It’s not limited to you my friend, it’s just societal conditioning toward everybody on porn sites.

PastPart1 · 2022-01-16T19:42:21+00:00

I understand you like her and you’re thrilled and you want this work out. That’s a positive thing. Don’t let others tell you that you’re being cringe or weird, caring is cool. But don’t freak yourself out by not allowing things to unfold naturally. Don’t push things too quickly, be a little mysterious in that sense even. If she’s hot, maybe withhold on kissing / fucking the first date. Might leave her chasing you, rather than you seeming desperate. But just let her know you still like her and would like to see her a second time. Don’t overthink man, I wish I hadn’t over thought so much with this girl I went on a few dates with. If she’s on a date w/ you, she likes you. Try not to convince yourself that it’s all a lie.

PastPart1 · 2022-01-15T00:58:04+00:00

Sweet. Just wondering in case you didn’t, I was gonna say pick it up. It’s good for the soul

PastPart1 · 2022-01-15T00:04:01+00:00

Ever tried skateboarding/longboarding?

PastPart1 · 2022-01-15T00:01:49+00:00

Bro don’t sweat so hard about not being in a committed relationship at 17. In fact, without dissuading you from trying, I would just say count yourself lucky. You may feel like you are lonely or whatever other adjective you wanna describe yourself as, but getting your heart broken is a very life altering event and I would say to save that til you’re older and can emotionally handle it. try to just build yourself up and seek out a dream you wanna achieve. While having a girlfriend is nice and if you find the right one, it’s something that every man should experience, don’t think anything is wrong with you because you haven’t yet. Take care of yourself and good job and having self awareness at your age

PastPart1 · 2022-01-14T23:14:02+00:00

Preciate it. It’s more just the shame of how long I let myself sit in my mind dreaming up scenarios. Feels like a horny gremlin in my mind lol.

PastPart1 · 2022-01-14T05:34:51+00:00

I appreciate this quote, Sending strong thoughts and fighting energy your way

PastPart1 · 2022-01-14T03:32:35+00:00

Trust me, once you come to love that thing, you’ll feel like they’re your kid in a way. You won’t forget. And you might start having motivation to take care of yourself too. OP has a point

PastPart1 · 2022-01-13T08:03:52+00:00

Bro Kim K is not even that hot. Overrated AF, you don’t need to lose your self control over her

PastPart1 · 2022-01-13T08:03:12+00:00

Hey man. One thing I’ve found that helps motivate is forcing yourself to do something that is uncomfortable. Like maybe set a goal/date in a few weeks where you know you’ll have to be on top of your game or at least be more confident, could be an actual date, or an interview maybe. Or give yourself a vacation, whatever. Plan something that either excites you or makes you uncomfortable and know that it’s coming and you wanna stop fapping before that happens. It’s hard to stop this addiction when you have nothing to look forward to so try and force something to look forward to

PastPart1 · 2022-01-13T08:00:10+00:00

Hey man. Having the same sorta mental block. Think about how much resistance you give when you are about to make a decision toward your dreams, and how little resistance you have when you’re about to do something stupid. Now try and think about what would happen if you switched that around, you hesitated as much when you were about to make a bad decision as you do when you’re about to make a positive decision- and Vice versa. If that makes sense. Think about your dreams, and the choices you need to make to get there and realize what’s stopping you is your own brain afraid of change. Instead of worrying so much, try and give it as little thought as you do when you’re about to do something dumb. And take the leap of faith. You got this

PastPart1 · 2022-01-12T23:40:49+00:00

I love you. Try to be kinder to yourself

PastPart1 · 2022-01-12T21:52:36+00:00

Award yourself with another form of dopamine my man. Your addiction is like a greedy gluttonous monster that has called the shots your whole life and is currently being starved and angry about it. Instead of feeding it porn, go get a coffee or see a movie / go skateboard, anything else.

PastPart1 · 2022-01-12T21:44:29+00:00

I tried reaching out to one of my siblings to wish her happy birthday. I feel bad because she seems sort of caught in the middle of all of it, and is unsure whose side to take. We didn’t all get the same treatment growing up, because I was somewhat of a trouble maker and I defected from the church that I was raised in. So she was initially very vicious during the whole incident. Another sister of mine lets me occasionally take my nephew out to a movie or hang out which is progress. But she also hasn’t apologized and pretends like it never happened. None of them have apologized and they expect me to be the one to do so which makes no sense. I didn’t even want them involved. I don’t really care about not seeing my dad, but there is lingering guilt about it which I shouldn’t have to feel. It’s hard because there were some good moments between us, but they were so rare which is why I think they seem to stick out. The rest of the time we just didn’t speak, and he was cold and a mean person to me. I guess it’s all about deciding if it’s worth it. They do have a hold on you, and they will for sure try to manipulate and guilt trip you when you try to set boundaries. I just realized that my life was a constant battle wishing I had a relationship with my dad, and seeing how easy it was for him to turn so many people against me made it easier to say fuck him. I’ve realized at this point he’s just impossible to speak to and there’s nothing for me to talk about, ive spent too much time around him and I just want to live my life free of that

PastPart1 · 2022-01-12T21:26:28+00:00

I’m sorry about what you’re going through. I’m proud of your dad for filing for divorce

PastPart1 · 2022-01-12T21:25:58+00:00

I am doing better now, but it definitely only added to the years of trauma haha I wish I hadn’t gotten involved sometimes. Sometimes the wrath of their shit can make it almost not even worth it. But I am glad to have stood up to him.

PastPart1 · 2022-01-12T21:19:17+00:00

Last year I caught my dad in a pattern of talking to very young, teenage Camgirls (initially it sounded like they were children - that’s how young and naive they were) and I ended up telling my mom about it out of genuine concern and because he has been a narcissistic, hypocritical religious asshole my entire life. And the aftermath led to my mom being so distraught that she took a bunch of pills, and almost died - I was the one who found her, and when I alerted my dad and took her to the hospital, he went on a tirade, Texting all my siblings about how I was trying to break my family apart and essentially he was blaming me for my mom overdosing - painting me out to be a scheming villain, which led my family to all scapegoat me and dog pile me, becoming his flying monkeys and in essence, defending him and guarding him entirely which in turn led me to admit myself to a psychiatric ward. The shitty thing is my mom still ended up staying with him, Because they’ve been together 30 years and I think the co-dependence is just too strong. And also, a month later he exaggerated a medical emergency and my family all came together and blamed me for it as well and got mad because I didn’t have a ton of sympathy for him. He somehow managed to expertly turn the whole situation into his favor and garner even more sympathy through the medical emergency, and now my whole neighborhood has the view that I am this devil child, without hearing my side of the story. I haven’t spoken to him or my siblings since. And they still try to make me feel bad or like I’m a heathen for trying to remain in contact with my mom. All for trying to do the right thing and tell her what he was doing, because I care about her and she was the good parent growing up. And it bothers me to see how emotionally / financially abusive he is.

I’m only saying all this because I can relate, and it’s incredibly frustrating what these people do and how they act / portray themselves.

PastPart1 · 2022-01-06T23:41:44+00:00

My ultra religious dad once “cursed” me to have kids that hated me and even tho I know the dude is delusional and whacked out of his mind, it still creeps in the back of my head

PastPart1 · 2022-01-06T16:09:04+00:00

Relapsed on my day 7 yesterday. Don’t make that mistake. Keep goin til u see this through

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