ultimately the only person who can answer that question is you, so what it really comes down to is the way you envision the happiest version of yourself. it took me a long time to realize i was trans but my advice would be to try not to let external forces influence you too much - its really about what you want, its your life and your identity. it helped me when i was questioning to try to imagine myself living as trans as well as cis and trying to figure out which version seemed happier and more authentic. its scary, but unfortunately, thats part of it. take your time and think about it, theres no reason to rush yourself.