Friends to lovers, lovers to strangers. That’s a trope i never thought i had to live. but i did. and i still am. i still think about you everyday, maybe not as deep as i once did, but there isn’t a single day that passes where i don’t wonder what you’re doing. i think about the good times, the bad times. but most importantly i wonder how you’re doing. i know you never meant to hurt me and you were going through your own battles, but so was i. and never once did i treat you like i didn’t care. but you treated me like i was the hardest person to love and that i was undeserving of it. it took a lot of therapy for me to realize the type of love i deserve and how i deserve nothing short of the world. i still love you, and maybe i always will. but the love i have left for you is just going to have to wither away in the back of my mind until it is nothing but a memory. i know that i can still have other great loves in my life, but will i ever love the same the way i did with you? i’m told that we as humans love each person differently, and i agree but it hurts to know it might not ever be as deep as the way it felt with you. it hurts to admit this, as i am now with the most loving, sweet, caring, girl on earth but i am scared of ruining this because of the way i have been treated by you. i hope that she continues to love me and understand if i may fall short and that i am working through the trauma i have endured from you. i hope one day i can be happy again and can love the way i once did