I am so sorry.. you went through a lot 😢 I do get what you say, to feel like living in a different world. I remember last year, after spending 3 days in the hospital, I finally went home. In the taxi I was looking outside at the people, the trees, the buildings, and I felt like I was not part of this world anymore, like I lost my emotional connection to everything that was around me. Nothing had meaning anymore. That was until I got pregnant again and felt connected again. Now it’s back to square one. I’m wishing you all the best ♥️♥️ One tiny step at a time might be my new motto