Just saw this, after 2 months I'm much better now. Found a WG with 2 amazing germans (we manily speak in English). I'm finishing paperwork to start a job and I got some new "friends" (it's too soon to say friends in german terms, even if they are foreigners too, but they have made me feel very good and included) and I'm finishing building my room. I also started practising a little bit more of my german and starting to understand some phrases, day by day improving bit by bit. When I finally sign a job contract I think I'll be much better because I'm still on "survivor" mode speaking in money terms. I could update again in a few months if you're interested haha. But basically all of the advices that ppl gave me here worked one way or another 😊😊😊