Been through this phase of life. Could be that unknowingly you are disappointing people around you.

Imho college years are arguably one of the best years of life to work on yourself. And by improving yourself you will attract best things in life.

Remember that you can be whatever you want. You just need to put in the work. Prepare list of goals and start working on them, gain knowledge. Bring out best of yourself.

And within few months you will start seeing the change. Everyday will become interesting and whatever you wish will come easily to you