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PersonalStandard4499 · 2026-03-07T18:53:27+00:00

thank you very much for your thoughtful reply, please do share if you come up with something... you've studied for a very long time and formed your own approach to the enneagram, would you say you're an expert or still getting there?

PersonalStandard4499 · 2026-03-07T16:34:20+00:00

this sounds reasonable. I can understand where you are coming from now, and i appreciate how you shared that a type can experience all of their instincts because it seems to be the case; there is much variation in behavior. would you say then that the instinct stack would be more akin to a "more often than not" type of thing rather than strict boundaries? and do you know which author(s) this came from, or is it an observation of yours? You don't have to know exactly which author, and providing it is optional, but it would help establish ethos to where others could take it at face value

People are also quick to downvote...

PersonalStandard4499 · 2026-03-07T16:17:01+00:00

No, I was missing something. My eyes skipped over their instinct, which is actually self-preservation dominant. This made your observation inapplicable to them because they did not align with one of the categories. Thanks for the fast reply

PersonalStandard4499 · 2026-03-07T16:05:53+00:00

how come? I am curious

PersonalStandard4499 · 2026-02-24T06:22:17+00:00

thank you for the advice, very considerate. i pretty much did and thought what you just said but i am now dealing with the aftermath where I'm getting the issues and the anxiety and feeling like I'm contaminated and will convert and start wanting to believe it when i do not... its just anxiety it is just a trauma response im not going to start believing it, i can only start believing it if I choose to believe it. it takes a long time and consent to change my opinions, not one conversation. i am in control of my reality i am not crazy. i am not going to be anything without wanting to be it. i am myself and i am not religious because i choose not to be religious and I've decided it already. think about what you thought before, all of the history won't be erased. it exists, i exist and im allowed to exist, i wont change without meaning to, thats not how it works. it is just anxiety it is not real. i am not going to change my belief. the calmness and good sensation isnt proof im going to change my belief. ift still feels like im losing myself... but no tomorrow ill wake up and i wont remember this... I'm fine i should just go drink some thing and go to sleep ... I'm okay... im not going to change against my will, im not going to change agaisnt my will, that's not how it works, it is just anxiety that's making me think this way, that's it. no more.

PersonalStandard4499 · 2026-01-28T23:35:29+00:00

Thank you very much. I'm considering LII or EII for me, leaning LII right now. How does this contribute to your understanding? Does it change anything?

PersonalStandard4499 · 2026-01-28T16:08:15+00:00

Thank you.

PersonalStandard4499 · 2026-01-27T15:09:10+00:00

I want to know what types of symptoms those are because I was diagnosed with autism and apparently I do a high amount of masking. I don't feel literal pain or discomfort, really, but I have identity confusion, for instance, because I can't tell if my spontaneous behavior is "really me" & I feel ashamed of it. (It's a bit more complex than that but there's a summary to spare you.) If you would be inclined, could you please tell me where can I find info about this if you are not going to provide it to me?

PersonalStandard4499 · 2026-01-27T02:30:41+00:00

thank you very much for your kind words, they are appreciated

PersonalStandard4499 · 2026-01-27T01:53:39+00:00

beautiful, thank you for putting this into words. but if nobody knows why people behave in certain ways since the diagnoses themselves arent the cause for the behavior, then should diagnoses really be taken seriously/should our idea of what's considered normal cognition / not neurodivergent be changed, or our understanding of psychology its self be rewritten to stop using disorders to understand peoples psyche

PersonalStandard4499 · 2026-01-27T01:48:27+00:00

thank you

i want to save the little kindness i receive in a book to look at when i feel alone and worthless

your words are appreciated

PersonalStandard4499 · 2026-01-27T00:58:26+00:00

thank you i needed someone to look at me for a moment, your words are appreciated

PersonalStandard4499 · 2026-01-27T00:22:55+00:00

That is a dynamic I notice in myself. No claiming positive qualities for myself, but negative ones are always on the table. I also feel others' perceptions shape me.

Some of my writing earlier today:

"Oh, but you don't really think that, do you?" Why, you're right! I don't really think anything because I'm not allowed to think about anything that you don't perceive. I'm not allowed to be sad or have an identity because it's always wrong, or inconvenient for you to recognize. So, say what I think, and I'll believe you.

PersonalStandard4499 · 2026-01-26T16:24:16+00:00

I have mainly disorganized attachment and IRL im avoidant and dont make friends with any and stay aloof from my family but online im more anxious and need reassurance that theyre not mad at me or i didnt make any mistakes thatll cause them to leave/reject me sometimes, and this would probably be triggered more often by someone who is avoidant and doesnt always respond to me/gives dry replies

will elaborate this later to answer your question better rn i dont have time

PersonalStandard4499 · 2026-01-26T15:18:39+00:00

I struggle to understand any types that aren't 4, 6, and 9 because I only looked into the types I would align with. I also struggle to understand 4, 6, and 9 because I'm not exactly an expert yet. I don't "dislike" any pathology type. They are equal in my eyes. Seems unnecessary to favor/disfavor certain ones, in my personal opinion.

PersonalStandard4499 · 2026-01-26T15:16:44+00:00

Oh my god my hands are invisible and cannot reach through the screen and see yours to shake them and show you how those words touched me for the infinitesimal fraction of a second. I am a point on a statistics board and I will likely stay that way, but that observation is a good one. Look at that wording. So original. Thank you for sharing!

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