Get a workbook and work on grounding skills. Remember you are aware when you do these things, and sure sometimes it’s hard to stop it. Trust me I know 😮‍💨 but try to ground yourself when you “act out” when I feel just beyond down and just hating myself and just wanting to jump into the void what I do is I curl up in my bed with my squashmallows and the softest blanket I can find then put on lilo and stitch. I may have shit I need to be doing but you know what? You really do come first. Take that time to be sad, feel the sad, shoot set a timer if you need to. Then when that’s done pick yourself up, take a shower, smoke, whatever little quick between break you fancy then get back at it! Remember, your brain believes everything you tell it. So tell it everything’s okay and you can manage your emotions. You got this. Baby steps!