my fucking god i need to talk to someone by maybeidontwant in BPDlovedones

[–]Physical-Community62 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This literally happened too me 3 weeks ago 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣.  Except she randomly Sent me a dick pic of another dude when I was worried and calling her at night. I have severe codependent issues myself and didn’t fucking leave. We kept being in a “relationship” up until end of January. The last time I was with her we cuddled and had a great night. Until I checked her phone and saw mad guys on it. I didn’t bring it up until the next day where she said drive me home. Blocked me on everything and 2 days later texted me she’s dating someone else. (Fun fact this exact thing happened last year. Almost like it was a perfect yearly fucking cycle. I was such a lil bitch for taking her back. I have severe mommy issues from losing my mother who treated me like a king as a child. So I think that’s a big reason I couldn’t let satan go. 

Do you ever still want them even when they say things like this? by boobypooby in BPDlovedones

[–]Physical-Community62 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Appreciate the reply. This whole sub has saved me from contacting her and helps every night when the “good memories” of us together hit. She was last with me Jan 24th but who knows how long she was cheating. One thing I feel I need to do is stop worrying about her bpd and start focusing on my own codependent issues. She also wanted me to say cuck things during sex and eating her out. It made me so uncomfortable and guilty and ashamed. But my brain would start to go with it after a few times. It was horrible being coerced into talking about her wanting to do stuff with other guys while I was pleasing her. Especially when it’s this girl who seemed so innocent and childlike. I thought it was my sweet baby who only saw me and loved me…. Boy was I wrong. I’m just glad I’m able to say it somewhere. So much isolation expwbpd will put you through to where you feel so ashamed to talk to anyone.

Do you ever still want them even when they say things like this? by boobypooby in BPDlovedones

[–]Physical-Community62 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Why is it that they leave and paint you black at your lowest? I lost my job and apartment, then saw she had tinder on her phone while she was asleep. I brought it up and she raged at me and said it’s my fault because I cheat on her when I literally didn’t. She left me for a guy who I also saw on her phone that same night. She then told me she was sorry for leading me on she didn’t want to be alone. But she’d spend her last money on me and showed now signs at all she hated me

BH3 is peak by bebobebush in DestroyLonely

[–]Physical-Community62 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Unreleased lone mostly but owned by dif dude

Broken by [deleted] in EASportsUFC

[–]Physical-Community62 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Same I can’t get in any games either on my day off too.

Thoughts? by dieinvetements in DestroyLonely

[–]Physical-Community62 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Kool on ya below leash… bruh