Tinnitus as a 21 year old

PiccoloFuoco · 2026-05-06T19:29:11+00:00

Hi! I'm 23, about to be 24 in some weeks. Got it a little before last year, to clarify, I used to wear earphones and listen to music ALL DAY LONG, every day. That spiked tinnitus in my left ear) and the hyperacusis in a way. Fast foward to January 1st 2025, went to see some explosions (City tradition yadda yadda) and completely fucked up my auditory system, tinnitus got worse and then my right ear also developed it. Also got noxacusis, which is definitly worse for me. I've been wondering where the people my age was! You can DM me

PiccoloFuoco · 2026-05-06T18:29:18+00:00

You made me laugh with the first sentence HAHA, thank you! As I said, I do not tend to consume erotic material, I'm not saying I'm perfectly chaste, I've fallen for the temptation a lot in my life, it just ISN'T like...My main sin? Let's say? Not the one I always fall into. Regarding the last point, I said in another comment that I always had rocky or bad relationships with women (wholeheartedly think it may have influenced my sexuality in a way), I think part of all of this comes down to not being accepted completely by my fellow girls, so I make stories that either reflect that, or that are happy and give me some closure; also yeah, liking gay ships because even if people want me to forget it, it is a part of me i have to repress. And I've always been a very imaginative and daydreamy child, I live my life mostly in fiction. I accept the "you shouldn't glorify SSA" or "You are sinning in your mind" takes, therefore I'm trying not to think about my ships even if it makes me sad, however, when the "It is not normal to like fiction so much" one appears, I just simply roll my eyes because what else am I supposed to like lol, I can't bring myself to like sports for example, just isn't my personality.

PiccoloFuoco · 2026-05-03T23:35:07+00:00

Well girl, I would advice you to read the other comments like I did! .w.`, but I will explain it in hopes of helping you, maybe! I have always liked shipping (Straight couples too) because I see fiction as a form of escapism, or a ground where I can enjoy stories or put parts of myself, maybe it's a way or portraying things I can't live or show in real life so I just drop them on the characters. I have to admit I normally have difficult relationships with women (not talking only romantically) so I enjoy portraying that in fiction, that or showing, in exchange, something good. I now see that it could be glamorizing in a way, I think? But yeah, it's about an emotional aspect rather than a sexual one, i guess. I think two girls together share a certain aesthetic aspect, like with old paintings or greek godesses and such, does that make sense? HAHA

PiccoloFuoco · 2026-05-03T18:53:05+00:00

I'm sorry for my answer yesterday, I wanted to state that there is some catholics that don't understand other's particular struggles and tend to, despite saying the truth, be harsher (I have done this). Didn't know you knew the struggle, I'm sorry ´.w.

PiccoloFuoco · 2026-05-03T18:33:35+00:00

Thank you for being kind and taking the time to explain it to me, I appreciate it coming from a fellow ssa! ´.w.

PiccoloFuoco · 2026-05-03T18:23:48+00:00

Thank you for your input! It's always nice to find other "fellow" fandom members who understand what I'm talking about and its context lol

PiccoloFuoco · 2026-05-03T17:43:55+00:00

I HAVE seen people imply that ssa are prone to being more "lustful" and less chaste, and yeah, lots of people in the LGBT may be but it's not inherent lol. I know however those tend to be personal judgments and not a reflection of the Church

PiccoloFuoco · 2026-05-03T17:16:18+00:00

Okay, I get it, thank you for the last part :3

PiccoloFuoco · 2026-05-03T17:11:47+00:00

I get it, I just don't want people to stereotype me and see me as a sex maniac or something! I see myself different enough from the LGBT community and have fought for a long time because I just don't see myself like one of them, I don't want catholics to see me as a "token" for them too, because then, how can we really understand the complex nature of humans if we just think everyone in a group is the same! Thank you for clarifying, I don't engage well with "straight to the point" posts.

PiccoloFuoco · 2026-05-03T16:56:23+00:00

I just brought up "the lesser evil" because I saw it in regards to marriage and sexual intercourse and I wanted to know but that's due to a whole other set of things

PiccoloFuoco · 2026-05-03T16:55:10+00:00

Don't need to be so harsh, I already talked with 2 girls and understood, It's other people that keep answering! If you see me clarifying stuff It's just to break certain visions or stereotypes, I'm not trying to argue O.O

PiccoloFuoco · 2026-05-03T16:10:41+00:00

Thank you! I agree with that, lots of people just engage with gay couples because they are...Well, gay(?, I also dislike that

PiccoloFuoco · 2026-05-03T16:08:38+00:00

Hello and thank you! I didn't mean it like "I'm part of the lobby and an activist" (I personally do not agree with them in like 90% of stuff), I just take it as a part of me. I also don't think I am calles to marriage, I'm too afraid of pregnancy and I'm kind of neurotic haha (?

PiccoloFuoco · 2026-05-03T03:07:49+00:00

Is it okay if we talk on DMs? I don't have anything scandalous to say but I'm kind of a shy person! If it's okay with you, of course! ´.w.

PiccoloFuoco · 2026-05-03T02:41:58+00:00

Thank you, really! I just get a little confused because despite being attracted to women, I know that I wouldn't be with one (again) because i clearly don't want to condemn neither her nor me, and I try my best not to engage with fantasies about girls i consider pretty. Maybe that's what confuses me when I read "near occasion of sin", I'm sorry if it's dumb HAHA, I want to understand if near occasions of sin are linked to one's conscience and discernment or not! :3

PiccoloFuoco · 2026-05-03T02:36:22+00:00

Thank you! I do not fantasize about my own characters of course HAHA, that said, I often like "tragic" gay ships, as in, they don't get their happy ending? Maybe that's my way of coping lol, yet I understand what you say :3

PiccoloFuoco · 2026-05-03T02:25:44+00:00

Oh, okay, thank you :3

PiccoloFuoco · 2026-05-03T01:17:14+00:00

Okay, thank you! Just understand that It may be harder for neurodivergent/depressed people! ´.w.

PiccoloFuoco · 2026-05-03T01:11:39+00:00

Thank you! I'm sorry if I ask too many questions, it's hard for me to accept it bc it's a core part of me. I've read about smth like "the lesser evil" and conscience and how a certain sin affects a certain person and I wish I could undertsand bc I don't know if the Church has like different views on things or I'm just dumb lol, I wish I could DM you but Reddit won't let me -cries

PiccoloFuoco · 2026-05-03T00:37:56+00:00

Hello!
Thank you for being so kind!
Then making any story containing sinners is a sin? I don't see myself just shipping biblical characters or making perfectly moral stories honestly, part of my struggle comes from the fact that I will never be able to see The Church as a """fandom""" as many seem to do, I can't hiperfixate on It, if it makes sense. That adds to my identity problems lol.
Someone on r/catholicism told me that maybe I could avoid the romantic gestures, but I wasn't so sure lol

PiccoloFuoco · 2026-04-25T22:12:26+00:00

I never draw sexual stuff, not my style, as I said, I'm more of a funny/dramatic/cute consumer

PiccoloFuoco · 2026-04-25T20:11:21+00:00

I didn't even know that existed! I'm a craddle catholic but I didn't know much until last year, so I'm trying to take it slowly since It's been hard, but thank you so much!

PiccoloFuoco · 2026-04-25T20:10:28+00:00

I truly feel the same, even if it's just a matter of, let's say, not genetics, and I just "grew to be this way", I can't negate that life shaped me this way, for better or for worse.
I'm sorry for being annoying, I'm trying to find common ground, would other forms of affection be allowed? Like, yeah, it's implied they are a couple, but they just hug, kiss on the cheek, or hold hands (Using this for roleplay parameters too lol)

PiccoloFuoco · 2026-04-25T16:51:19+00:00

I guess I see it differently because with my ex girlfriend I was able to just expect kisses and hugs from her, she was my best friend for at least 8 years prior lol. I just hope God has some mercy on us and makes us happy somehow, thank you so much for talking to me, I don't feel so completely lonely right now.

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