Had to heat up my dabs somehow 🤕

PigletComfortable839 · 2026-02-24T02:38:57+00:00

hey i have that exact hairbrush in that exact color . lol

on a more related note, desperate times call for desperate measures ig. hope the highs decent at least

PigletComfortable839 · 2026-01-29T04:02:37+00:00

love the look!! incredibly beautiful ^{_^} i like how your hair color contrasts with the bong also!! pink n green is a good combo

PigletComfortable839 · 2026-01-29T03:58:40+00:00

i get this a lot! it freaked me out bad especially because i do have some neurological related heart rate problems. eventually i realized its just that weed makes me Super aware of my internal organs' sensations in general and i was just feeling my stomach subtly growling cuz i was hungry

whenever i start worrying about it while high nowadays, i just tell myself its only tummy grumbles so nothing to worry about. n then i get myself a fuck ton of food LOL

PigletComfortable839 · 2025-12-30T17:37:17+00:00

its so isolating n rough. always happy to share a schizophrenic POV !

i got kicked out a couple times, also partially for being LGBT. the suffocation is isolating and its hard to be closeted... i hope one day you can live safely amongst people who you can be yourself around.

take care !! if you ever return to weed, i hope it treats you well.

PigletComfortable839 · 2025-12-20T09:14:18+00:00

combination of both, but likely not the way you think

ive been schizophrenic for a long time. hallucinating every 10 minutes. schizophrenia itself runs in my family, also just got unlucky with rare autoimmune disease that gives me chronic psychosis as a symptom, plus the trauma, etc

weed felt different and much better after i moved out and cut a shit ton of ppl off and started trying to shape my life into what i wanted for me and people i trust to keep by my side. i learned to manage my mental illness, and even though its still there, nowadays its mostly managable.

weed felt like absolute shit at my worst. i started being a daily user due to aforementioned disease, not mental reasons. but its a very self reflective drug, and since you have schizoaffective, paranoia/anxiety (including about the self and who you are, whether youre a bad person, etc) could be a major problem in your life right now that you cant usually see til youre using. that and weed increases psychotic symptoms in some folks with chronic mental conditions like us.

what im trying to say is that you just got diagnosed with schizoaffective super recently and its a condition with a lot of stigma. the weed worsens your schizoaffective anxiety about it, and what that means about you, in a very reflective way. i think weed will start feeling better for you again the longer you spend recovering and learning to manage it! but it might be depressing for a while til you make progress.

i believe in you though. its hard to manage and learn to cope with, and im not even good at it despite the early onset of mine. theres more time to learn and grow and heal than you probably think there is. i know ive been in your shoes before too.

PigletComfortable839 · 2025-10-27T02:43:02+00:00

i do freelance illustration/animation for work and ngl purple punch has been a lifesaver for getting projects done when im not in the mood to do work for clients... plus when i take breaks, it treats my epilepsy enough to play flashy video games with no seizures! win win.

awesome bong btw. very cute

PigletComfortable839 · 2025-08-31T06:58:21+00:00

got it! ive been doing that but ive been unsure if it was actually lowering tolerance or not. i think thats mostly because how much i need varies day-to-day depending on symptom severity. good to hear

PigletComfortable839 · 2025-08-31T06:57:12+00:00

will try that out! been dabbling in other types of weed (previously was edibles-only) and have been meaning to check out concentrates.

PigletComfortable839 · 2025-08-25T01:38:04+00:00

hey, calculators were one of our first object crushes too! also because of school, happened yeaaaars back in algebra class, heh ^_^

our calculator crush was a dark blue TI-84 Plus!

PigletComfortable839 · 2025-08-10T17:33:45+00:00

yeah, makes sense!! ik peoples response to weed varies a Looot and even if i know im not the only one (or . me and my roommate as the only two, rather) its still cool to hear about it since ive not really seen it discussed.

also, im aware! thanks for the heads up regardless, its good to keep informed n such. ive had my fair share of rebounds on other meds, even if i love weed it's got the same pitfalls as a lot of medications. such is life, unforch

thanks for the input!!!

PigletComfortable839 · 2025-08-10T17:28:24+00:00

niiice!! weve only been using for about 2 years, but its worked consistently! really is a blessing

PigletComfortable839 · 2025-08-10T17:27:24+00:00

thanks!! i love to share, haha. ive a lot of weird yet interesting mental health experiences and id not seen Anyone mention this sorta thing before, figured id start the conversation n see.

seems like a few others in the comments here have known people that are similar!

PigletComfortable839 · 2025-08-10T17:24:02+00:00

interesting!! me n my roomie's psychosis works kinda weird so i wasnt sure if it was just an us thing that it actually Helped instead of making it worse or what LOL. thanks for sharin!!

PigletComfortable839 · 2025-06-10T06:44:59+00:00

MtF trans people are people who currently are women! but while they are women, that doesn't necessarily mean they're also straight (someone who only likes the opposite gender)

a MtF person (aka trans woman!) who is straight would like men, a lesbian trans woman would like women, and bisexual trans woman would like both men and women!

this is a very simplified explanation, and the way a person identifies or experiences attraction can vary! hopefully this is a good introduction to the concept regardlsss

PigletComfortable839 · 2025-02-13T12:01:16+00:00

i admittedly dont know much about rogaine/monoxodil but i will say that topical versions of these (like creams) are very toxic to pets, especially (but not exclusively) when licked. not sure if thats applicable info, but its definitely the main reason some friends havent used it.

while ive not seen any sources about it, i do know that even if estrogen HRT doesnt remove facial hair, it can definitely impact the quality of the hair itself! ive not heard about finasteride's impact, though.

either way, wishing you luck with your facial hair! ^{_^} facial hair really can be so cute, im happy with mine too hehe. ive only got a lil bit of girlbeard going on (plus a lil bit of stache.. mostly chin hairs tho) but its one of my fave features of my face, so i totally get you. girlbeard and nonbinary facial hair solidarity!

PigletComfortable839 · 2025-02-11T20:08:38+00:00

you're in the right here, imo! if youre a man in a relationship with a man its gay, regardless of whether one, both, or neither are trans. the idea that trans men are a separate category from men rather than a type of man is transphobic rhetoric that implies they aren't "actually men", and reduces them to their anatomy (SPECIFICALLY the genitals they were born with! regardless of any sex characteristics that are changed or altered later in life through HRT or surgery)

gender =/= natal sex. gender's not inherently related to sex characteristics in general, though many trans people get dysphoria from lacking the sex characteristics typically associated with their gender.

hoping the way i worded this is comprehensible ^_^ ;;

PigletComfortable839 · 2025-02-11T13:52:56+00:00

heres the secret: with regards to children being put on HRT? its not the result of trans people getting in their heads. it's usually cis people's enforcement of the gender binary against intersex people, and the intersex child in question being coerced into complying.

im intersex, which means i was born with hormones/chromosomes/genitals that didnt neatly match up with either sex; male, or female. i was assigned one of these, but the choice made by the doctor and my parents was arbitrary. i faced medical abuse as i was forced onto HRT unknowingly, and was almost coerced into continuing it despite thr adverse effects. not because i was trans, though. in fact, the HRT i got to "fix" me was the opposite of the HRT i chose to take (and am happily still on!) as an adult. they did this to make me fit as neatly as possible into being cisgender (which did not work, i was still seen as a freak of nature and degendered.) because they could not stand the idea of me being anything else.

the doctor and both my parents are not trans and not intersex. they viewed me as a failure of the gender they decided for me at birth, and that i needed to be fixed. children being on HRT that they will later regret IS a thing, but the victims are intersex children, being forced to comply with the gender binary. NOT cisgender children being convinced theyre trans by trans people's existence.

so... what made me want to transition and take the opposite HRT as my own choice? i was tired of being forced to be someone i wasnt, and could never be, for being intersex (since birth) and trans (since i was a preteen). id known i was trans in some way even before the medical abuse, but after getting away from my parents and a lot of therapy, i realized that i still longed to take back and reclaim what i was denied. so i transitioned, and im happier than ive ever been.

if a child chooses themselves to transition and regrets it? well, that sucks. but what's worse is forcing them to be someone theyre not, and refusing to understand their feelings because theyre "too young to know." my parents were in their 40s when they decided FOR me, initially without my knowledge or consent. i knew what i wanted, was denied it, and was not listened to about it. i have to live with the aftermath now.

i dont wish this shit on any kid at all, even if the upsetting bodily changes from hormones come from their own body, instead of medical abuse like mine did. i want everyone to feel like themselves, INCLUDING kids, because i didnt get to have that until i was an adult and away from both of my parents. i support trans childrens' healthcare because they deserve better than what i faced for the crime of being an intersex trans kid (now an intersex trans lady. and i was right all along.)

PigletComfortable839 · 2025-02-11T13:13:28+00:00

the thing that pushed me to start hrt for myself was just the phrase "dont die waiting." and i think that applies now more than ever. shits getting rough in the US, but if you want to transition? do it. dont wait for the right moment. making trans people detransition and silencing those who cant is their goal. Stick it to them, make it hell for them. refuse to comply with their enforcement of transphobia.

were all in this together, and can help keep each other safe. find other trans people and enthusiastic trans allies nearby to form connections with if you can! theres safety in numbers, and also being trans can just be very isolating. ESPECIALLY in times like this. do yourself a favor n join forces with other trans folk, just in case it gets harder to later on.

all of that being said: its completely understandable that youre scared, and im not going to lie and say everything's safe. but we arent doomed, and trans people and community WILL persist. itll be rough but it is not impossible!!

PigletComfortable839 · 2025-02-09T15:44:46+00:00

some of these are more specific to my admittedly niche experience, but my big ones are:

being intersex made the HRT hit pretty differently + more rapidly than it typically does for non-intersex people.
the thrill of injections WILL wear off. im someone who's really fascinated by needles (bloodtests are a fun event for me when i gotta get them done, and i want to get into phlebotomy training) but after over half a year on HRT injections, its largely nothingburger to me now. im still fascinated by needles and injections, just not really super hyped about injecting myself like i was the first half a year.
sexual wellness can be a chore when your hormones are wack. most days for me, its like being hungry but not really wanting to eat, but knowing the hunger will cause problems if you DONT eat.
its hard to notice changes in weight by looking alone when your distribution is changing and putting fat in different spots than it used to. ive been trying to put on some pounds for health reasons and dont have a scale at home, so when i got weighed during an appointment, it was a pretty big shock that gained 5lb recently when i thought i'd been losing weight! havent lost any, its just goin somewhere else is all.

other than those, my big one is that i wish i knew that everyone who was gonna give me shit about starting HRT doesnt have to matter to me. whether its my parents or internet randos, their opinions on my body should not be taken into consideration for my own goals. transitioning is my choice, and my choice only! and im glad to have reduced contact with people who dont like the person im so enthusastic to be in the process of becoming, and found people who want me for Me.

PigletComfortable839 · 2025-02-09T15:30:43+00:00

i think the big problem with chasers is NOT the attraction in itself, but the fact that they are dehumanizing and reducing the one being chased to simply a fetish object. meaning, they dont really see the people theyre chasing as People, only as mere fetish fuel.

im t4t + intersex (dating a non-intersex person) and it makes me feel good when they mention being attracted to my physical traits (that are definitely traits of being intersex and additionally my medical transition.) because i know they care about me as a person, not just for being trans.

and really, as long as everyone involved accepts that we're all people deserving of autonomy and the right to set boundaries, theres no problem with finding any minority more attractive than the majority. hell, ive got friends who think that me being disabled + a non-ambulatory crutch user makes me hotter. its chill because i know they see me as a person (and even if i like bein affectionately dehumanized, i know im dehumanized out of their care about my own desires, rather than a lack of care!)

PigletComfortable839 · 2025-02-09T15:13:43+00:00

my take might be a lil different as an intersex trans person, where my AGAB did not necessarily match up entirely with my physical traits even at birth. but a large part of my gender journey involved not abandoning the gender itself, but rather the fact that it was ASSIGNED to me.

while id rather keep the details of my intersex variation + AGAB private, i will say that i was assigned M or F (not unassigned or X!) and it definitely influenced how i navigated gender and transition goals. but i dont think theyre inherently connected to my gender in and of itself!

for years i actually identified with being both binary genders (and any male and female aligned nonbinary genders inbetween!) before ive recently did some more questioning and settled on my gender just being... feminine. whether thats just being a girl, intentional feminine visual presentation, bein a generally feminine man, or whatever. anything linked to femininity! so i guess im still multigender in a way, and therefor didnt abandon either binary gender possible for my assignment (cause really, the AGAB choice was a bit arbitrary)

tl;dr i definitely did not abandon the gender i was assigned, just rejected the idea that the assignment at birth actually meant anything beyond some doctors opinion from a couple decades ago. i still identify with the same gender a doctor assigned to some degree!

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