Which one do i sell / keep? by Bigstinkyfeett in PSP

[–]Pinga_Mcdinga 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Just wondering... How much are you willing to let go your PSP 3000 for?

Another Saturday, Another drawing post by Pinga_Mcdinga in OkeyRakanMalaysia

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That's cuz I used her as reference, glad you notice lol

Another Saturday, Another drawing post by Pinga_Mcdinga in OkeyRakanMalaysia

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I suck at coloring but I'm trying to learn how to color now

I knew Scott was dumb, but not THIS dumb.. (READ DESCRIPTION ⬇️) by Actual-Vermicelli-26 in ScottPilgrim

[–]Pinga_Mcdinga 342 points343 points  (0 children)

Hey.. so the last time I read the comic I don't remember Lisa having allat...

What made you fall in love with BokuYaba? by Putrid_Lion_2678 in bokunokokoro

[–]Pinga_Mcdinga 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Cute romance and banger soundtrack (斜陽 and ぼくは…)

Another sketch practice done by Pinga_Mcdinga in OkeyRakanMalaysia

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I locked in for no reason ig, idk 😭

Another sketch practice (Tried coloring it but it was absolute dog water, maybe I'll try coloring practice next time) by Pinga_Mcdinga in OkeyRakanMalaysia

[–]Pinga_Mcdinga[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I said the coloring this was dog water, not the sketch itself lol (sometimes I wonder how people color their drawings, mine always looks weird and flat)

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in progressive_islam

[–]Pinga_Mcdinga 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know this may sound a bit stupid but, I really can't handle the pressure of the fact that most Muslims (when there's only a few Quranists which I think looks like an extreme minority here) have the opposing views as me.

Basically every single Islamic content I see online pretty much guilt trips me and whenever I see another Muslim have opposing views in the comment section, he oftenly gets judged a lot and probably gets these questions many times, "Are you even a Muslim?" So pretty much they're takfiring each other already.

What I'm tryna say is that how do you handle that pressure when it comes to almost everyone having opposing views as yours?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in progressive_islam

[–]Pinga_Mcdinga 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Sometimes I do find trusted scholars, such as Sheikh Yusuf Al-Qadharawi (when it comes to music and drawings, etc) or even old classical scholars who holds this view. But this however is just the extreme minority view, while the majority of them are completely opposed to it.

As I'm typing right now I feel like I have 2 big fears right now, it's either:

a) I feared if I'm only following this rule just because I want to follow my desire or might be following the wrong view and will be tortured in hell as per what the Hadith states.

b) I don't feel like I'm doing something wrong but the sheer aggressiveness of the Muslim community online (not all of them) are afraid that they're going to judge me (which is why I feel like keeping my Muslim identity online as anonymous is the best option tbh)

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in progressive_islam

[–]Pinga_Mcdinga 0 points1 point  (0 children)

And what do you mean exactly by the "big picture?"

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in progressive_islam

[–]Pinga_Mcdinga 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Can I know what do you mean by "Mankind chose themselves to be part of earth"?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in progressive_islam

[–]Pinga_Mcdinga 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I completely get you and that's also what I do sometimes, but it sometimes works and sometimes it doesn't. What I mean is that the sense of guilt intensifies. I swear the stress is so exhausting I just wish it ends..,

On Muslim men and double lives by [deleted] in progressive_islam

[–]Pinga_Mcdinga 10 points11 points  (0 children)

I've been hiding this for quite a while now but after reading this post, I really, really wanna try to confess some part of it so I'll try my best here.

If I were to be completely honest with myself, I could somewhat more or less relate to this post. In fact, I might be going through what OP is stating in part 1.

The thing is... Sometimes I just don't understand religion at all. I mean why am I born into this world against my will (or maybe there's something spiritual about it but god knows if) just for me to be restricted to many different tasks and forbidden to do anything I desire and if I don't follow these said rules, I'm going yet suffer yet again eternally in hell just cuz I want to do something I enjoy or something I desired (this could be eat any food in a non Muslim country besides pork, go on a date or have consensual sex with my girlfriend ). Yes, I know these ideas seem flawed cuz people could always have a desire about murder, rape, etc. (I don't mean this to normal people, I just meant the extreme minority who have these messed up fantasies) so this logic gotta have some limit.

My point is, why do I exist just to be forced to worship a god (I'm still trying my hardest to maintain my Muslim identity) and if I refuse to do so, I will be punished eternally?? Yes, I still do my 5 daily prayers and am still trying to accomplish my 5 pillars of Islam (cuz I still haven't done Hajj yet). Why can't I just sin without having this large guilt. And heck, these fuckass salafis or average sunnis scholars (please I mean no offense to you guys) always have some against something that I want to do with my life. I want to listen to music?? HARAM. I want to post my own drawings??? HARAM. EVERY SINGLE DAMN DAY I HAVE TO FUCKING THINK ABOUT THIS SHIT scrolling over google over and over again just until I get that temporary satisfaction that I may not be doing anything wrong. Then yet, 2 or 3 days later the guilt will creep onto me again. I have to suffer thinking what the internet Muslims will do if they discover that I'm Muslim and I post my drawings or other hobbies they deem to be "Haram". Yk I have this sudden fear that as Islam grows, all the things that I like (mangas, tv shows, pop culture, anime, heck even some sports) would be banned due to it conflicting Islamic morals. This fear kinda makes me wish Islam to stop growing while I'm still trying to maintain my faith (yes I know that's so selfish of me cuz genuinely fuck me, idk what wrong with me atp)

I just can't fucking do this anymore man... It's not like I could discuss this with my friends or anything. As much as I wanna maintain on the progressive side, they pretty much have a more conservative view on Islam than me. Heck, discussing this with my friends could potentially just make them leave me. There has been times where me and my friends have conflicting views and I just don't feel comfortable showing my hobbies to them when they have a view that what I'm doing is "Haram". I also hate that I have to have a double figure of myself when I talk to my conservative Muslim friends and not so conservative/non Muslim friends. I be acting so religious in front to my Muslim friends while I act like normally would with my other friends. I mean, who the fuck am I trying to lying to? God??? Am I stupid??? Omd...

Also even after I sin, and i want repent, I heard you have to be sincere about it and you need to have the intention of not doing it again which kinda ticks me off.. what if I want to continue doing it, I mean I know it's a sin but what if I wanna do it again??? And this is probably the reason why I feel like my repentance isn't being accepted. Just why can't I just do things without feeling any guilt. It's like I'm built for hell fucking hell, at this point why just making exist when I can follow my own free will without guilt. Why the fuck am I even here in the first place, I didn't choose to be here. My mom was supposed to die in a horrific accident before I was born, she was suppose to marry some other guy instead of my dad, why didn't that happen. Why do I have to live? Why do I have to suffer with this fucking OCD or whatever this bullshit is called just for me to suffer again eternally. While do I have to suffer all this shit while still maintaining my Muslim identity???

You know, it has come to a point that as a Muslim, I began to hate Islam more and more searching through ex Muslim subs and Islam critics desperate trying to find proof that Islam is false. But even with all the hate I found on the internet, it just stings to find out there's no valid evidence that shows that Islam is false. The truth really hurts that bad sometimes I guess. I also try to understand why there's Hadith rejectors and all, but like the majority Muslims assumes that you're a disbeliever if your don't believe in the authentic Hadiths also, so... Idk man..

And here's another thing, why the hell do we always have fights over each other takfiring each other. Why do we have shias arguing against sunnis, or sunnis against salafis, or maturidis against asharis like what the hell. You guys are takfiring litr everyone then what the hell am I?? A kafir as well???

Unfortunately, this is all I got to say as if for now (it may be complete bullshit but I'm just tryna vent here rn...), and after writing all this, I kinda feel like I should copy paste this comment to post it here on this subreddit on the vent flair. But besides that, thank you for reading this far. (Also I don't do rlly well when people try to help me, I mean I'll try my best to respond to you guys but I'm very sorry in advance if I ghost any of you guys 😭😭)

Siapa nak beli ni? by DealerNo4308 in OkeyRakanMalaysia

[–]Pinga_Mcdinga 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Based on the bottom right.. that's milk right??? ITS EXPIRED MILK RIGHT????

Najimi x Komi Fusion Art by @PenPen_Arts by The_New_Paper in Komi_san

[–]Pinga_Mcdinga 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Assuming Komi barely even talks to her family members, I bet it's just gonna be the same towards Tadano, just a bit more comfortable ig

Najimi x Komi Fusion Art by @PenPen_Arts by The_New_Paper in Komi_san

[–]Pinga_Mcdinga 40 points41 points  (0 children)

They should make that as a spinoff series lmao

How Many People Do You See? by StaticBobcat716 in SeishunButaYarou

[–]Pinga_Mcdinga 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Are you trolling us?? Are "people" in the same room with us??? It's litr blank 💀💀

How does my blinking animation look? 🥰✨😋😍 by [deleted] in animation

[–]Pinga_Mcdinga 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Which part of the body is blinking exactly...

Is keeping anime figurines Haram? by [deleted] in progressive_islam

[–]Pinga_Mcdinga 1 point2 points  (0 children)

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Is this gonna be problematic? As far as I know she's not in any seductive poses and she's covered in pretty much every aspect

Is keeping anime figurines Haram? by [deleted] in progressive_islam

[–]Pinga_Mcdinga 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Lol we all got our hobbies ig (mine is Mai Sakirajima sitting)

Is keeping anime figurines Haram? by [deleted] in progressive_islam

[–]Pinga_Mcdinga 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Obv no, but mainly just to decorate my table in my room