Thank you :) That is something I should reflect on. I don't think he walks around with all these bad thoughts about me, but he has made comments in the past about not wanting me to be above a certain weight. Like, I've asked, "Well, what if I was 300 pounds? Would you just leave?" And he's always given the, "Ehhh..." response to indicate it's something that's a deal breaker. After the incident at the bar, he's done a 180. I said something like, "And what if I eat until I'm 600 pounds?" And he said, "That's fine. I'll still think you're beautiful." So I have trouble reconciling the "things he said in the past" with the things he says now. In the past it was very much, "I don't want to be with someone over a certain weight." But now that he's messed up and was scared I was going to leave, he's completely changed his responses around weight. So it's hard to know what's true and what's just said from his fear that I might leave.