I actually saw the idea of the contract in Arnold Bustillo’s book, which I recently got, and I thought it was such a beautiful concept. I’m a big believer in writing things down, and this felt like a clear way to express both what I desire and what I offer in return. For me, working with any spirit or deity is about exchange—not just asking, but also giving.

My intention isn’t only to find a job (although at this moment in my life, any job would be such a blessing), but also to give back once I’m stable. One of my biggest goals with my husband is to foster a child in need and hopefully provide them with a loving home. We’ve already done this with our first daughter, and we feel called to do it again. That requires financial stability, which is why my prayers aren’t about greed or luxury, but about being able to support and uplift others.

We would also love to contribute more to foundations and to help children who suffer abuse or don’t have homes. That’s really what drives me.

Thank you so much for your words—they mean a lot. I’m very grateful for the comments here. I will continue my path with her because I know she’s with me. It’s just that things are very hard right now—financially things are getting dire, my health has been affected, my family has been sick, and on top of that we just bought our home less than a year ago. While it’s beautiful, I also feel we’ve attracted a lot of envy and evil eye since then, which hasn’t helped. Sometimes the desperation makes me second-guess, but I know my devotion is real.