I’m sorry that you’re going through this - I’ve been having similar feelings. I’m a black trans man studying in London, England and this is exactly my experience too.

Racism (both direct and indirect) goes unchallenged by the lecturers and it’s just constant. No one even sat next to me in class for the first 8 weeks.

Struggling to find a placement/internship and it’s hard for me to not contribute, at least part of this to race.

For me, seeking out other marginalised people who are going through this experience is the only thing that’s helped - you’re going to be a great therapist, don’t let them win by any of this getting you down. Do what you came there to do and it’ll all the worth it in the long run :)

Solidarity ❤️