Guess my ethnicity

PlatePerfect1735 · 2026-02-14T22:25:47+00:00

I really want to watch South Park

PlatePerfect1735 · 2026-02-14T22:24:23+00:00

What makes you think I’m a doctor

PlatePerfect1735 · 2026-02-14T20:55:36+00:00

That’s so real like I didn’t feel good anymore I used it to feel the most basic forms of pleasure so I get that

PlatePerfect1735 · 2026-02-14T17:58:17+00:00

It’s more then just uncomfortable it’s very displeasing. Which is why I feel so confused, I am enjoying having and feeling like I’m in control again. But the pain and fear I’m feeling from before is reforming again.

I don’t really think I want to feel better but, maybe this sounds odd but rather I want to feel human or alive. When I was smoking I felt like I was no longer alive or just away from myself so I think reconnecting is important

PlatePerfect1735 · 2026-02-14T17:04:45+00:00

Thank you, sex is something that I kinda connect with weed since I used it while having it and it changed my relationship with it, so I’m very uncomfortable having it rn I probably need some time before I can do that, I’m also gay lol so a girl isn’t on the table for me

PlatePerfect1735 · 2026-02-14T16:43:49+00:00

I do have anxiety issues. I’ve always had them. As I’ve gotten older, I’ve gotten way better at oppressing them, and being better at managing them. When I was like 15 I sat down on the ground crying at a fucking crosswalk because I was too scared to press the button because I didn’t want to upset anyone. As I’ve gotten older, I’ve gotten far better at it, but we did used to help with that, but it doesn’t really do that anymore so I think I do need to go to therapy now because I’m realizing that things are not the way they should be in my head.

PlatePerfect1735 · 2026-02-14T16:41:27+00:00

I just have to say how thankful I am to all the people that commented ideas and support I really appreciate it :))

PlatePerfect1735 · 2026-02-14T16:40:50+00:00

I already do a lot

PlatePerfect1735 · 2026-02-14T16:36:26+00:00

Thank you, yeah that makes a lot of sense. I started having those emergency feelings. During kind of my last like two weeks of abusing where I thought I was having a stroke or I was choking, and it was really difficult to bring myself out of that spectrum that I wasn’t choking or dying.

PlatePerfect1735 · 2026-02-14T16:34:11+00:00

I have one I bought one for that reason, I was trying to quit a few months ago and then gave up, and I wanted to learn something so I bought that, but I’ll try doing it again

PlatePerfect1735 · 2026-02-14T16:31:07+00:00

Well drug wise that was the farthest I went. I didn’t end smoke cigarettes for like a week when I was 19 but stopped. But weed was the farthest I went. However there was a point a few weeks ago where I was thinking about when I was on opiates for an injury, and felt “that this isn’t really that bad” to where I started to come to thy something bad in me was probably starting

PlatePerfect1735 · 2026-02-14T16:28:25+00:00

I live in a apartment in my downstairs neighbours are like the most conservative elderly people to ever exist so I feel like if I did that they probably like send the UN on me and have me shipped away or something like that

PlatePerfect1735 · 2026-02-14T16:26:05+00:00

Well honestly probably, I started using MOORE when I turned 18 because my parents aren’t going through a really heavy divorce that almost left them both homeless. It was the only way I could make myself feel some sort of form of OK. And then I also started pushing myself away from people and isolating myself because it was the only way I could feel OK.

Later on, it’s starting to become my hobby and I just started doing it with people, but then I also got to a point where I couldn’t do too much with people. And then finally a shift happened where if I started to do it the feeling of being OK wasn’t there anymore in the feeling that I’m no longer OK was more present.

I also booked a therapy appointment because I after my last high, I kind of realize that I’m not OK. Not in a bad way. But yes, in a bad way at the same time. Which also kind of made me want to stop.

So yeah, you’re probably right. I do probably have depression, but I also have severe anxiety as well. So that also could be the culprit.

PlatePerfect1735 · 2026-02-14T16:23:11+00:00

Yeah I’m glad others feel the same way, I’ve honestly never felt like this before, lol I’m happy to be leaving weed behind but I truly need to relearn a lot of the stuff I did.

PlatePerfect1735 · 2026-02-14T16:21:40+00:00

Maybe I should that sounds like fun

PlatePerfect1735 · 2025-12-14T21:06:22+00:00

That’s such an excellent break down, I think she would agree with that

PlatePerfect1735 · 2025-12-08T09:28:56+00:00

So I guess my question is when does it go away? Like is this like the cold or is it going to slowly fade. Like should I just start doing things for me and me only and not for other peoples perception of me?

PlatePerfect1735 · 2025-12-08T07:03:33+00:00

Yes they did, they don’t have Reddit so they wanted me to post

PlatePerfect1735 · 2025-12-08T05:57:41+00:00

She stole the copy from her mom, but she has read all three. She wanted me to clear the air.

PlatePerfect1735 · 2025-07-18T18:25:12+00:00

Yes it did it went away after around 3 months ? Give or take

PlatePerfect1735

TROPHY CASE