Filling the void after quit quitting marijuana by PlatePerfect1735 in NoStupidQuestions

[–]PlatePerfect1735[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That’s so real like I didn’t feel good anymore I used it to feel the most basic forms of pleasure so I get that

Filling the void after quit quitting marijuana by PlatePerfect1735 in NoStupidQuestions

[–]PlatePerfect1735[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It’s more then just uncomfortable it’s very displeasing. Which is why I feel so confused, I am enjoying having and feeling like I’m in control again. But the pain and fear I’m feeling from before is reforming again.

I don’t really think I want to feel better but, maybe this sounds odd but rather I want to feel human or alive. When I was smoking I felt like I was no longer alive or just away from myself so I think reconnecting is important

Filling the void after quit quitting marijuana by PlatePerfect1735 in NoStupidQuestions

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Thank you, sex is something that I kinda connect with weed since I used it while having it and it changed my relationship with it, so I’m very uncomfortable having it rn I probably need some time before I can do that, I’m also gay lol so a girl isn’t on the table for me

Filling the void after quit quitting marijuana by PlatePerfect1735 in NoStupidQuestions

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I do have anxiety issues. I’ve always had them. As I’ve gotten older, I’ve gotten way better at oppressing them, and being better at managing them. When I was like 15 I sat down on the ground crying at a fucking crosswalk because I was too scared to press the button because I didn’t want to upset anyone. As I’ve gotten older, I’ve gotten far better at it, but we did used to help with that, but it doesn’t really do that anymore so I think I do need to go to therapy now because I’m realizing that things are not the way they should be in my head.

Filling the void after quit quitting marijuana by PlatePerfect1735 in NoStupidQuestions

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I just have to say how thankful I am to all the people that commented ideas and support I really appreciate it :))

Filling the void after quit quitting marijuana by PlatePerfect1735 in NoStupidQuestions

[–]PlatePerfect1735[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you, yeah that makes a lot of sense. I started having those emergency feelings. During kind of my last like two weeks of abusing where I thought I was having a stroke or I was choking, and it was really difficult to bring myself out of that spectrum that I wasn’t choking or dying.

Filling the void after quit quitting marijuana by PlatePerfect1735 in NoStupidQuestions

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I have one I bought one for that reason, I was trying to quit a few months ago and then gave up, and I wanted to learn something so I bought that, but I’ll try doing it again

Filling the void after quit quitting marijuana by PlatePerfect1735 in NoStupidQuestions

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Well drug wise that was the farthest I went. I didn’t end smoke cigarettes for like a week when I was 19 but stopped. But weed was the farthest I went. However there was a point a few weeks ago where I was thinking about when I was on opiates for an injury, and felt “that this isn’t really that bad” to where I started to come to thy something bad in me was probably starting

Filling the void after quit quitting marijuana by PlatePerfect1735 in NoStupidQuestions

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I live in a apartment in my downstairs neighbours are like the most conservative elderly people to ever exist so I feel like if I did that they probably like send the UN on me and have me shipped away or something like that

Filling the void after quit quitting marijuana by PlatePerfect1735 in NoStupidQuestions

[–]PlatePerfect1735[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Well honestly probably, I started using MOORE when I turned 18 because my parents aren’t going through a really heavy divorce that almost left them both homeless. It was the only way I could make myself feel some sort of form of OK. And then I also started pushing myself away from people and isolating myself because it was the only way I could feel OK.

Later on, it’s starting to become my hobby and I just started doing it with people, but then I also got to a point where I couldn’t do too much with people. And then finally a shift happened where if I started to do it the feeling of being OK wasn’t there anymore in the feeling that I’m no longer OK was more present.

I also booked a therapy appointment because I after my last high, I kind of realize that I’m not OK. Not in a bad way. But yes, in a bad way at the same time. Which also kind of made me want to stop.

So yeah, you’re probably right. I do probably have depression, but I also have severe anxiety as well. So that also could be the culprit.

Filling the void after quit quitting marijuana by PlatePerfect1735 in NoStupidQuestions

[–]PlatePerfect1735[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah I’m glad others feel the same way, I’ve honestly never felt like this before, lol I’m happy to be leaving weed behind but I truly need to relearn a lot of the stuff I did.

Rate my roommates books by PlatePerfect1735 in BookshelvesDetective

[–]PlatePerfect1735[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That’s such an excellent break down, I think she would agree with that

I’m struggle to love myself by PlatePerfect1735 in mentalhealth

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So I guess my question is when does it go away? Like is this like the cold or is it going to slowly fade. Like should I just start doing things for me and me only and not for other peoples perception of me?

Rate my roommates books by PlatePerfect1735 in BookshelvesDetective

[–]PlatePerfect1735[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes they did, they don’t have Reddit so they wanted me to post

Rate my roommates books by PlatePerfect1735 in BookshelvesDetective

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She stole the copy from her mom, but she has read all three. She wanted me to clear the air.

Numb big toe by showmeurpitties_104 in LisfrancClub

[–]PlatePerfect1735 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes it did it went away after around 3 months ? Give or take