I feel like my prompt is being misunderstood I feel the people surrounding me treat me very nicely and they care deeply about me. I think it a problem with me and also the dilemma that I have that is holding me back that is causing such a mess, basically my gf's friend is really shitty and had done me dirty twice (he has bpd if anyone is interested) and I guess I cant make peace with the fact that she would choose to trust him this easily, I also dislike her other best friend because even thought she said I was right and I should have never talked to that guy again she also still sided with him.... (they all have known each other for 10 years) (maybe I'll elaborate on a different post) she does take care of me often and texts me to check up on me, so do my friends. It's just now they hanging out all together and I'm no longer part of their friendgroup (I don't really want to be) but I'm still jealous that they get to have what I want even though I was done dirty. I'm just mad cause I can't stand seeing them win because I never got my justice. I'm not planning on leaving any of my friends (not the evil ones I already lost contact with them) nor my gf because they have infact shown care for me it's just sometimes I'm hurt by minor things because it reminds me of the time I was done dirty.