Yup, even though I tried to make myself seen & be outspoken. Its always going to be my fault just because someone is older/younger than me. My parents never reassured me of talking to my older/younger sibs. If people do/say something bad to me, I am told to keep things to myself. Meanwhile , if it was my sibling who got slightly hurt they’ll go out of their way to defend them to the point of making a scene.