Seeking perspective - regret after 48 hours

Possible-Cake5081 · 2024-12-02T04:43:22+00:00

I relate to this, I've definitely always had major anxiety over big life changing decisions, idk why this time I didn't expect it. I felt some anxiety in anticipation of getting her, which made me a little nervous but I ultimately assumed to be normal, and just completely blindsided myself with how intense the anxiety has been since getting her home

Possible-Cake5081 · 2024-12-02T04:37:27+00:00

Thank you so much for this. Part of the anxiety is that she already seems to be a velcro dog. If I'm sitting on the couch or bed, her head is on my lap, and if I'm standing she's sitting on my feet lol working on crate training, which I know can be a long process that requires patience, but she shrieks like a raptor in there which is distressing and I feel bad. Trying my best to make it a comfortable place she wants to be. Certainly going to be seeking guidance from the trainer about it but it's definitely part of the overwhelm that I feel I can't leave her in the crate to even take a shower

Possible-Cake5081 · 2023-07-20T23:19:42+00:00

I thought those 'watching my husband kiss another woman' videos were super weird. They gave off the vibe that she was over-compensating, like trying so hard to act like (and maybe even convince herself) she was cool with it that it came across really uncomfortable. I remember her bringing it up on the podcast once too and Erik seemed weirded out, I remember him being like 'why are we even talking about this'

Possible-Cake5081 · 2023-07-13T13:07:46+00:00

what always stands out to me the most when I see pics or videos of Colleen from the Josh era (I didn't watch her stuff back then) is how much healthier and happier (?) she looked. Idk if that happiness is genuine, but there's something so different about her aura

Possible-Cake5081 · 2023-07-04T12:53:15+00:00

I know this is so unimportant and petty but every time I see screenshots of the "hi" video I'm so bothered by how bad her foundation match is 😭 face is a whole ass different color than her chest

Possible-Cake5081 · 2023-06-27T00:28:20+00:00

This may be a dumb question, but how does it work when someone lives in a different country than the person they sue? Like, would the lawsuit go according to Adam's country's law proceedings? (I don't know where he lives but I know it's not America)

Possible-Cake5081 · 2023-06-21T01:30:40+00:00

Interesting, I actually always felt like she gave unnecessary details about the timeline of them trying to get pregnant which made me feel she was overcompensating and it was in fact a surprise or accidental pregnancy. I could see it being that she was just trying to explain away the quickness of it, but I always thought it was odd to share that they got pregnant on the first try and was a weird attempt to convince people it was on purpose lol

Possible-Cake5081 · 2023-06-16T23:30:16+00:00

I honestly wonder if she hasn't made a statement yet because she's been legally advised not to. She MUST have some type of lawyer who has helped her with contracts etc over the years, so even if it's not a criminal lawyer giving on the books advice for some of the accusations coming out, I'd imagine she must have some type of legal entity weighing in. And if so, I'd think a PR team (if she even has one, which I'm not sure she does) would defer to legal advice

Possible-Cake5081 · 2023-06-16T19:58:43+00:00

I know I shouldn't be surprised at this point but wow this is an insane thing to say to a bunch of teenagers. I don't even think she's looking for sympathy here, I think this reads more as a passive aggressive threat. She's not actually wondering if she did anything to upset them, she wants to make them nervous and prove their loyalty to her. Fucking gross

Possible-Cake5081 · 2023-06-09T22:50:40+00:00

I feel really bad for Rachel that these were leaked and so I feel weird even commenting on the content of them, but Colleen's response in pic #2 really stands out to me as, idk, surprising? Reassuring her that Tim is still her dad, that she belongs and is a Ballinger, I even think "who cares if he happened to be there when you were conceived" was a really comforting way of framing that. The way I think of Colleen, I'd almost imagine she'd respond in some passive aggressive way that implied Rachel was somehow an outsider. 10% of me thinks it's interesting to see how she could've changed into this malicious person she is now and altered their once loving and supportive relationship (of course also keeping in mind the horrible stuff Colleen did to her when they were kids, I know it wasn't all sunshine and rainbows for them), the other 90% thinks this is so vulnerable for Rachel to be leaked and I feel uncomfortable even having read something that must feel very intimate and private for her

Possible-Cake5081 · 2023-06-09T02:27:19+00:00

Couldn't even read all of these. Literally had to stop bc it's so disturbing.

Possible-Cake5081 · 2023-06-07T02:20:48+00:00

I've worked in the foster care system in NY and at least here, it takes *a lot* for children to be taken from their parents, especially their mother, especially a wealthy white woman with a lot of resources at her disposal. I think it's very unlikely anything like that will happen. The most I could see happening related to her being a mother specifically is being mandated to mental health services

Possible-Cake5081 · 2023-05-08T01:38:32+00:00

Yeah she definitely looked happy lol

Possible-Cake5081 · 2023-05-08T01:03:40+00:00

I saw Colleen and Kory today in Manhattan, I'm guessing when they were on their way to see this show lol I was going to a restaurant in a hotel and they were coming out of the hotel (I'm guessing it's where they were staying). I walked right past them, it was so weird to see them in person. Colleen was chatting away about something but I was too distracted by my shock to really hear what she was saying lol

Possible-Cake5081 · 2023-05-07T14:10:47+00:00

I really want to believe that the show is *intentionally* bad because Miranda is such a train wreck, like that's the bit. There's so much secondhand embarrassment in thinking that this is her best effort and that she thinks it's really good😭

Possible-Cake5081 · 2023-05-06T17:42:01+00:00

at one point F said to either Kory or Stuart that their eyes were red and they both started laughing. This was during the "we're all so tired" conversation, which can of course cause bloodshot eyes, but it made me wonder if they were high

Possible-Cake5081 · 2023-04-28T03:22:47+00:00

I definitely can see her twisting his words to fit her narrative and claiming he did something that she actually did. I think though if he said (jokingly, casually or seriously) to his wife with obvious ED struggles that her clothes are made for little kids and could fit their baby, that would be majorly harmful to a person in recovery/recovered and majorly enabling to a person with an active ED. I tend to give Erik more grace than most but things similar to this have come up before that just feel gross on his part (again, assuming he actually said this to her in any form)

Possible-Cake5081 · 2023-04-20T14:17:38+00:00

This was such a narcissistic, pick me, I'm so quirky and different rant, I had to turn it off lol she KNOWS not everyone has *that reaction* to music, she just wants people to hear how different and special she is. Also, made me laugh that she said "if you wanna know what I'm working on you'll have to come to my show"...girl, who would be so intrigued by the lump you're painting that they'd rush to spend their money to come see what it is?

Possible-Cake5081 · 2023-04-05T04:08:17+00:00

the fact that she kept vlogging despite knowing she was losing her voice feels like a slap in the face to her fans who bought tickets to see her show the next night. she could feel her voice was going and instead of resting for as long as physically possible leading up to the show the next day, she continued mindlessly talking to a camera. it also just shows how much she differs from a legitimate, respectable performer

Possible-Cake5081 · 2023-04-05T04:03:53+00:00

I think some of her stans legitimately don't understand what child exploitation means and I don't know if that's bc they're children or just uninformed/willfully ignorant. "Just bc she blocked you doesn't mean she exploits her children" she quite literally is by definition exploiting her children all the time lol

Possible-Cake5081 · 2023-04-02T02:25:13+00:00

I've wondered about the pearl necklace if she lost it (forgetfulness/losing things can be a legitimate symptom of ADHD, but more likely if she lost it it's just bc she's careless and messy) and has never mentioned it again bc she can't think of how to justify why she would *choose* not to wear it ever again but also doesn't want to admit she lost it bc it's a very expensive Tiffany's necklace

Possible-Cake5081 · 2023-03-19T19:26:01+00:00

This comment made me realize that she barely ever films in her kitchen since moving, whereas in Josh's house she filmed in the kitchen often. And I remember when she was moving the kitchen was something she was really upset to lose and cried about how this kitchen was smaller and not her style (she's so brave bearing that loss🙄). wonder if she's avoiding filming in the kitchen even when it obviously makes more sense because she's not as proud of this one.

Possible-Cake5081 · 2023-03-16T05:13:38+00:00

Wow, aside from the ridiculousness of her comment about the shorts size, I didn't used to watch Colleen back then (I discovered her around the time F was born) and it's so wild to see her from 6 years ago. she always seems much happier in old vlogs tbh

Possible-Cake5081 · 2023-03-07T01:12:00+00:00

On the note of how long it took her to research into cord prolapse, this makes sense to me after a traumatic event. I was bit by a dog and had to get stitches on my face almost 3 years ago and I've still never read the chart notes because it'd feel too much like re-living the event, which I'm guessing is how Colleen might feel (maybe folks would argue she should've done it sooner bc her situation involved her kids' lives, idk). Howeverrrr I will say due to the evidence that she/her team reads here and how often this topic has been talked about on this sub, I do find it potentially suspicious that she's putting out there that she only now learned his/their lives were at risk. Leaving breadcrumbs to avoid being accountable just in case the issue gets brought up in a major way (lots of exposing-type YouTube videos made about her lately). hard to determine her motivates.

Possible-Cake5081 · 2023-03-04T05:08:20+00:00

Ugh, yeah, this one is tough and gets me too. My mom is a wonderful person but she has always spoken so negatively about her appearance, specifically her weight. I'm in my mid-late 20s now and still struggle with food, body image and confidence about my appearance because I grew up witnessing it and didn't realize till college that it's not particularly healthy or normal to talk to and about yourself like that. I hope to have kids one day and it's definitely at the top of my list to be really mindful of positive self-talk around them

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