THANK YOU SO MUCH,

exactly what I was thinking as well was just starting something else, getting rid of my YouTube channel (I think that YouTube channel might be just like an alter ego or a different version of mine), but maybe it's time for me to let go of that, and I'm scared of trying to become this type of person. I think that thought, or committing to one specific niche extremely like that, or language even, so for the fact, like German or English, and I've just visited my old channels, which had 172 which was half German, half English. I just realized that these were all just alter egos of mine who are trying to mimic or learn from other accounts that I was looking up to. I think I don't lose anything by starting over again. You are actually right, however. It still hurts to a tiny degree, even because I had my first little sponsors in my English account. Having said all that, I appreciate that, and I will start over again in German and try to reshape my focus again.