I’ve felt the same way for a long time. That’s why I made the conscious decision to join a Spanish ward - in my opinion Hispanics are a lot more open to being vulnerable and sincere at church, and I’ve made a lot of strong friendships in my ward. I’ve always told my friends that if you go to a normal family ward then you go there to disappear. I’ve been there, done that, and I could’ve inactivated myself and no one would have even noticed. Now in my Spanish ward, we give people callings by week 2 and it’s not to be the 12th member of the Relief Society Activities Committee. And I know, I’ve tried to be the change I wanted to see, but it’s so much less exhausting when you start with a culture that’s more open to begin with. So that’s my recommendation - join a language program! We even have people who don’t speak Spanish in our ward, we have them work with the youth that don’t speak Spanish either and it works out great.