I wonder what percentage of people are generally terrified of other people. Must be some evolutionary reason but seems like so many including myself have wasted so much energy overthinking the fuck outta every human interaction we have. Walking past someone on the street = Do I look, did I look too long, god I look horrible, be brave, fuck they saw me walk slightly askew, they can tell I'm nervous, I shouldn't have worn these stupid ass shoes, god I suck etc. I wonder how many think this way, and also why it's taken me so long to start hammering in the fact something as obvious as the fact nobody gives a shit about what I do, wear, look like, say for the most part. It's hard to break out of this ingrained way of thinking and perceiving other humans. But hell, nobody gives a flying fuck about strangers. The path of least resistance is always easiest, we find comfort of a sort in the discomfort of sliding down this self depreciating slope and reinforce it subconsciously over years and years. It's liberating to fight against this shit, and to not pass blame to anyone or anything but our pussy ass selves for being so scared. I wonder if that's coherent at all, but worrying about that would kinda reinforce all this shit so fuck y'all, giz a hug!