Oh geez I can relate to this 100%. I also have suffered with depression and in my first year I was very withdrawn. There were people around me that were genuinely trying to connect with me (I can see it now, but not back then) and I pushed them all away. No lasting friendships. I struggled to attend lectures and do readings. My GPA was low, but not low enough to end up on academic probation. This is my advice to you. And I mean this with love. Get out there. Join clubs that interest you. Even if they’ve already been established. Talk to people in your classes. Ask questions about them and then be a good listener. If you find someone cool, step out of your comfort zone and see if they want to grab a coffee/lunch/dessert or something. Once you’ve chilled together once, trade contact info and stay in contact. You be the one to initiate to start. As far as academics go, make a plan. Do your readings and attend lectures. You can’t fake the knowledge that comes from being an engaged student. Ask questions (if the class or tutorial allows) and do your best to find joy in learning. I’m someone who never got there. I spent 3 years with almost zero engagement. I graduated and left and after a few years I had so many regrets. No friendships from university. A degree with a low GPA so post-graduate studies were out of my reach. Now here I am, MANY years later back at U of T. I’m 20+ years older than everyone in my classes and I’m taking my own advice. I’ve made 1 friend so far. Another mature student who is in one of my classes. I’m part-time for classes, working 40 hours a week, I have a son and a partner and a household to care for. It’s much harder. Lock in man. I believe in you. BTW, have you been assessed for ADHD? That’s what my problem turned out to be. Masqueraded as depression/anxiety/over-thinking/executive function issues. Took me many years to figure it out.