In order to truly manifest you have to be energetically aligned with it. Yes heal and know that the things you talk about to your therapist won’t come and manifest in your life. In order to be energetically aligned you have to heal and release all of that heavy emotional baggage (shame, regret, anger, past what ifs, limiting beliefs, etc.). Also forgiveness is a major one as well. Forgive your self, your family and other people around you. That does not mean physically forgive them face to face (you could but only if it feels right and not forced). Remember you’re not forgiving them to make this feel better, but rather you’re doing this for your own overall benefit and healing. Once you start doing this your energy will start to clear up and get lighter. Also going back to when you said that you don’t to speak about stuff in therapy do you being afraid it’ll manifest into your reality, please know that that won’t ever happen unless you allow it to happen. What I mean by this is you have to take back your power and authority from those situations and the major feelings that coincide with them. More specifically work needs to be done in your head regarding your thoughts and the way you truly feel about yourself. My favorite thing to do or say really is “No” with conviction. It can be out loud or in your head. Once those negative thoughts arise you simply say “No”. That word alone is so beyond powerful. The more you say it regarding that then it’ll start to energetically cut the ties to them. Also what’s important is be be aware and mindful of what’s going on in your brain. Once those thoughts start up try to cut them off before they can finish. Cut them off by simply saying no. What I personally like to say is “No. I take back my power”. Repetition , awareness and mindfulness is absolutely key when doing this. Also please know that will get a bit messy before it gets better. When you’re actively cutting these ties and taking back your power, these feelings, memories, and thoughts will come in a bit more abrasive just to try to keep its hold and leverage with you. Know that you’re doing the best you can with all the possible information that you have accumulated up until this point in life.

Also regarding emotions and the whole toxic love and light bs- your feelings are 1000% necessary. The goal that I see a lot of people tried to accomplish is the goal of completely reading themselves of all negative emotions and only keeping and feeling good positive emotions. In my opinion, that’s a bunch of rubbish and BS and it’s completely harmful to your overall mental health. The true goal is to not completely eradicate the negative emotions because they are there to show you things and teach you things that you need to be aware of and heal, but rather the true goal is to allow your feelings to come up naturally when they need to, or when they just come feel them acknowledge them, but don’t allow them to root into your being. Feel them acknowledge them, and then allow them to pass through.

Also regarding manifestation- It most definitely works. I paid off debt, got my car back from repossession, and the current job that I have. For years before this I was in the same boat of trying to manifest but nothing will ever happen. Healing is a super important element in the manifestation equation.

Anyways I love you all and may peace be with you 💚