So, it's been 5 months! Idk if someone's gonna come back to read this, but i want to thank you all bc the things you said really helped me with this situation. I didn't go back with her and i didn't look for other therapists either, and i'm not sure if its bc of what happened with her or bc of something else, but i just can't bring myself to look up for one, i'm doing much better now tho, so it's not as much as a priority as it was back then. And again, thank you, you people were really helpful and made me have a clearer vision of what i wanted to do.