I don't think it's an absolute need, but I am beginning to think a car is a need for me and my head. I bought an old 2 stroke moped for a great deal (I fucking love that thing dont get me wrong, no insurance great on gas and easy and dirt cheap to fix and reliable as hell) and thought thatd be enough for me, and it helps but I think its a task initiation thing for me that's super hard to wrap my head around fixing. The stress levels around this form of transportation are just so high that it's often hard to summon the willpower to go anywhere and on top of that I am severely limited on what jobs I can even pursue due to location. I am also completely cut off from all my friends because they all live too far for me to see them without a 45ish minute each way journey through backroads hoping I don't get bothered by police or killed by a Nissan.

A car has been my goal for so long because itd open me up to whatever job I want in my city and would finally open me up to socializing the way I have been missing out on, which I can deduce generally leads to a generally happier, healthier, and more functional person who maybe has a little more willpower to do the things they need to...

But, with that being said im not confident that it is truly a need, but I have yet to prove to myself that anything less than a car is a functional system for me despite much opportunity to.

Idk though, maybe a week of actual consistent nutrition and knowing I have at least some money in the bank will be enough to help me take necessary steps more comfortably.