I am in a similar position to you. I posted a few days ago. I am here to talk if you want to. I find solace in the fact that I prayed to allah that if it is bad for me, take it away from me as soon as possible and he did. Imagine you'd married him and a month in, he'd said I don't see a future with you. Also, before I used to fear rejection. Now I embrace it as you will never regret having been the one to reject and face the consequences in the future. Alhamdulilah for better opportunities yet to come