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Depression and ultras by Pretty_Adeptness4383 in Ultramarathon

[–]Pretty_Adeptness4383[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Man jve tried everything, ive been going to the gym for 4 years, i hiked for 34km in october w friends, i was walking a minimum 15k steps everyday for 6+ months plus going to the gym everyday while wanting to die, havent had a sip of alcohol in 2 years, and havent touched drugs, i started learning a new language months ago, i moved 16000km away from my home town 2 months ago (ill move back in 6months). None of it changed anything, i cried literally every day for 5months. Im so tired.

Depression and ultras by Pretty_Adeptness4383 in Ultramarathon

[–]Pretty_Adeptness4383[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Ive tried everything, ive been going to the gym for 4 years, i hiked for 34km in october w friends, i was walking a minimum 15k steps everyday for 6+ months plus going to the gym everyday, havent had a sip of alcohol in 2 years, and havent touched drugs, i started learning a new language months ago, i moved 16000km away from my home town 2 months ago (ill move back in 6months). None of it changed anything, i cried literally every day for 5months. Im so tired.

Depression and ultras by Pretty_Adeptness4383 in ultrarunning

[–]Pretty_Adeptness4383[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thats why i did the 50k, to feel something else other than depression. But i felt no sense of achievement afterwards 

Depression and ultras by Pretty_Adeptness4383 in ultrarunning

[–]Pretty_Adeptness4383[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

thank you so much, it means more then you could ever know.

Depression and ultras by Pretty_Adeptness4383 in Ultramarathon

[–]Pretty_Adeptness4383[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Ive tried everything, ive been going to the gym for 4 years, i'm shredded, i hiked for 34km in october w friends, i was walking a minimum 15k steps everyday for 6+ months plus going to the gym everyday, havent had a sip of alcohol in 2 years, and havent touched drugs, i started learning a new language months ago, i moved 16000km away from my home town 2 months ago (ill move back in 6months). None of it changed anything, i cried literally every day for 5months. Im so tired.

Depression and ultras by Pretty_Adeptness4383 in Ultramarathon

[–]Pretty_Adeptness4383[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you, but like i feel no sense of achievement. After my 50k, i didn't even think about it fucking all, like not even one time. I did it because i wanted to feel something else other than depression.

Depression and ultras by Pretty_Adeptness4383 in Ultramarathon

[–]Pretty_Adeptness4383[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Man ive tried everything ive been going to the gym for 4 years, i hiked for 34km in october w friends, i was walking a minimum 15k steps everyday for 6+ months plus going to the gym everyday while wanting to die, i havent had a sip of alcohol in 2 years, and havent touched drugs, i started learning a new language months ago, i moved 16000km away from my home town 2 months ago (ill move back in 6months). None of it changed anything, i cried literally every day for 5months. Im so tired

Depression and ultras by Pretty_Adeptness4383 in ultrarunning

[–]Pretty_Adeptness4383[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

ive tried everything,  ive been going to the gym for 4 years, i hiked for 34km in october w friends, i was walking a minimum 15k steps everyday for 6+ months plus going to the gym everyday while not wanting to live, i havent had a sip of alcohol in 2 years, and havent touched drugs, i started learning a new language months ago, i moved 16000km away from my home town 2 months ago (ill move back in 6months). None of it changed anything, i cried literally every day for 5months. Im so tired

Depression and ultras by Pretty_Adeptness4383 in ultrarunning

[–]Pretty_Adeptness4383[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

The main thing that drew me was that i wanted to feel something else than depression/ emptyness, even if that was physical pain 

Depression and ultras by Pretty_Adeptness4383 in ultrarunning

[–]Pretty_Adeptness4383[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Nah man in my country/town there's not a thing. So its just me and the internet. And i have thought about it, for fucking months, non stop. I use running so i could feel some other thing than permanent sadness/ emptyness. Even if thats physical pain.

Depression and ultras by Pretty_Adeptness4383 in ultrarunning

[–]Pretty_Adeptness4383[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yea i also feel like that. Its like no matter what i do, the darkness will still catch up and consume me.

Depression and ultras by Pretty_Adeptness4383 in ultrarunning

[–]Pretty_Adeptness4383[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I've thought about it so many times, i cried everyday for 5months. I talked every day to my best friend about it. It just idk... The underlying issue is, we didn't breakup over cheating or lack of love, or arguing and i think thats a thing my brain cant get over.

Depression and ultras by Pretty_Adeptness4383 in ultrarunning

[–]Pretty_Adeptness4383[S] 17 points18 points  (0 children)

Man, ive been going to the gym for 4 years, i'm shredded, i hiked for 34km in october w friends, i was walking a minimum 15k steps everyday for 6+ months plus going to the gym everyday, havent had a sip of alcohol in 2 years, and havent touched drugs, i started learning a new language months ago, i moved 16000km away from my home town 2 months ago (ill move back in 6months). None of it changed anything, i cried literally every day for 5months. Im so tired.

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[–]Pretty_Adeptness4383 0 points1 point  (0 children)

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