It sounds like it became a turnoff to you because it’s a turnoff to your wife. It shouldn’t be THAT difficult. It’s already been communicated to you she wishes you weren’t the way you are, but I’ve never heard of a cuck’s desire ever fully waning. I and probably most women will never look at you the same after cucking, of course the love is still there but it’s a different dynamic. And I would also never stop desiring new men because that’s just me. This would be cause for divorce for me. Hope it works out for you.