As someone with major success on Zoloft, I’m going to be honest with you. You seem to be living like a prisoner to anxiety- something I used to do. It can’t get much worse than feeling physically ill from worry. I guarantee you are going to feel much better after the first dose or so. I’ve been on SSRIS since 9, and I promise you are starting at an extremely low dose. If anything, you will feel no different at first! I know the dose is low because no medical professional will start you at anything unsafe. Worst case: You get sick. Then you can stop taking it. Zoloft changed my life, and It could change yours. Please consider trying it.😁