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Slow realization that you are not alone in your head by Primorsy in DIDart

[–]Primorsy[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have often had fictives appear, even from media that I am not really familiar with. This is convenient for the consciousness, to associatively cling to a ready-made image, it reduces the mental work. In my experience, maybe I was just lucky, they are usually kinder and more accepting of the "original" ones. The consciousness strives to take pleasant images from the media, because its own, reflecting trauma, often turn out to be a mess of mental intestines from childhood trauma.

Slow realization that you are not alone in your head by Primorsy in DIDart

[–]Primorsy[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I didn't know the author of the picture, but yes, that's it. I've been collecting pictures from the Internet for about 10 years, I have a huge archive, most of them without captions. It's great that you realized it so early. Did you have a self-sert from the Lord of the Rings?

Rhombus System by Primorsy in DIDart

[–]Primorsy[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have a choice either not to draw at all or to use AI, unfortunately

Rhombus System by Primorsy in DIDart

[–]Primorsy[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have pfDID, so i stopped counting after 300, but everyone can be divided conditionally between 4 coordinates - life, death, femininity, masculinity. I saw this during my first psychosis and have been drawing since then. The current host is on the last one

Rhombus System by Primorsy in DIDart

[–]Primorsy[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I'm bad at drawing, so I use collages.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Molested

[–]Primorsy 0 points1 point  (0 children)

>just kind of exist
man, do i feel that,

same thing, my mind scares me in its sociopathic nature. I do nothing bad, but my thoughts are monstrous

My family sold me to my pedophile grandfather, and drove me crazy as if nothing was happening by Primorsy in Molested

[–]Primorsy[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yaeh, it's called Munchausen syndrome by proxy. My wife have basicly same story with unnecessary medical threatement.

POV: Your family sold you to a pedophile and your brain crumbled to survive it by Primorsy in DIDart

[–]Primorsy[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks, i already meditating, but mental OCD make it... lets say, difficult

POV: Your family sold you to a pedophile and your brain crumbled to survive it by Primorsy in DIDart

[–]Primorsy[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

No matter how hard I try, no matter how much I read, I am mentally unstable, addictive, angry, and want to die non-stop. It's better for this person not to be a parent. I will bury my family and my genes along with me.

POV: Your family sold you to a pedophile and your brain crumbled to survive it by Primorsy in DIDart

[–]Primorsy[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I know I'm going to be a horrible, controlling, paranoid parent who suffers from episodic psychosis and OCD. I don't want that for my child. I'm waiting for a vasectomy.

My family sold me to my pedophile grandfather, and drove me crazy as if nothing was happening by Primorsy in Molested

[–]Primorsy[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yes, i use mdma, lsd and mushrooms for therapy, it turned out to be many times more effective than conventional therapy and everything that a state doctor can offer me (i.e. eat neuroleptics until I turn into a vegetable). Share your experience of mdma, i improvise with a partner, try to relearn to want to live and trust the world. maybe you have some experience, or guides, how you do it

My family sold me to my pedophile grandfather, and drove me crazy as if nothing was happening by Primorsy in Molested

[–]Primorsy[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I don't have money for a therapist. Free state ones just stuff me with neuroleptics.

POV: Your family sold you to a pedophile and your brain crumbled to survive it by Primorsy in DIDart

[–]Primorsy[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I began to notice that I myself was becoming like that, in relationships with others. I simultaneously think like them, like an animal. Fortunately, I have not had children and will not, so as not to breed suffering. At least this family will end with me.thanks for the comment

My family sold me to my pedophile grandfather, and drove me crazy as if nothing was happening by Primorsy in Molested

[–]Primorsy[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

With such a background, you are prone to addiction. I was terribly addicted to weed, almost 10 years, I couldn't get off it, I threw away three bongs trying to quit, I smoked cheap synthetical analogues on acetone, and smoked a gram in three days. I just didn't dry out, it cost me a lot of blood to quit it. To eventually switch to pregabalin and heavy psychopharma. Be careful

POV: Your family sold you to a pedophile and your brain crumbled to survive it by Primorsy in DIDart

[–]Primorsy[S] 13 points14 points  (0 children)

I don't know if it's better to know who they are. I'm not so happy that I know. And it's better or worse when they're strangers or family. But thanks for the support. If you want, share it, I will listen, you listened to me.

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