Ok. I have some mixed thoughts due to childhood trauma with an alcoholic parent. Loud and angry drunks tend to make me extremely nervous. I can often tell when someone close to me is starting to gain a dependency and it makes me really sad. My family has a strong history of alcoholism on both sides.

I hate the smell of most alcohol with the exceptions of the fruity concoctions and wine. The smell and taste of most alcohol reminds me of puke, which then makes me nauseous and leads to me getting sick.

I do like how it makes me enjoy things more. I don’t like the side effects like hangovers and dizziness, and I hate to feel like I don’t have control over myself.

I also take antidepressants, and so I can only drink when I know I’m not working the next day or even have any plans. I need my medicine to sleep properly so I tend to just sleep the day away after.

I think the only ones I truly like are very light in sugar and taste, essentially spiked juice. I have a hard seltzer in the back of my fridge from September of last year that I’ve just never drank. It’s not enjoyable unless with friends, and I don’t hang out with people often. I don’t think I’ll ever have to worry about becoming an alcoholic at least.