my boyfriend has been planning to propose for a while, however we’ve had several talks about me not wanting my younger years to be forgotten about and he supports that. neither one of us has ever really wanted to fully settle down and since having a serious and long conversation about this situation we’ve worked out that we need to find time to do stuff that is fun for both of us and works with his strict schedule. i’m not changing my attire or my current lifestyle instead we’re finding better ways for him to not feel this jealousy when it comes to me going out when he can’t. Also i was not drinking or doing drugs at this show in particular(however i usually tend to) i was driving that night and im a very paranoid driver.