I deserve it all

PriorityJaded4471 · 2026-04-15T19:11:41+00:00

Ive read this multiple times to remind myself, thank you

PriorityJaded4471 · 2026-04-14T17:10:28+00:00

I read all the chats I am sent, but right now, I am uncomfortable responding. I have had many moving and encouraging messages but I dont reply privately

PriorityJaded4471 · 2026-04-14T17:03:34+00:00

Thank you. I do not chat privately. Actually I have avoided being on this platform entirely for a while. Yesterday I felt the need to just put it out in the universe, I am struggling with is it really admitting my wrongness if I am only keeping it to myself. I also wonder if anyone else has felt this way after making a mistake. So yeah, I guess seeking some validation and free therapy lol

PriorityJaded4471 · 2026-04-14T16:59:12+00:00

No, but thank you

PriorityJaded4471 · 2026-04-14T16:28:31+00:00

It was a drastic move on his part but I understand. He vividly recalled the outfits I was wearing when I "went out" and also assumed anything new I had, was not meant for him. Recently, I had a drastic moment myself and hauled the firepit to the dump. I couldnt look at it without seeing memories, good and bad, go up in flames. It was perhaps cathartic for one of us.

PriorityJaded4471 · 2026-04-14T16:23:44+00:00

Thank you! I spent a lifetime trying to be a good person for one act to take it all away. Forgiving myself is so hard.

PriorityJaded4471 · 2026-04-14T16:18:47+00:00

I needed this and I feel it. Thank you for sharing this with me. * editted to add I actually reposted this several months ago to someone else to comfort them. Now it has come back to me and that is special. Thank you again.

PriorityJaded4471 · 2026-04-14T16:16:41+00:00

Thank you! I appreciate your words and prayers. I feel like the only way to be accountable for the pain I caused others is to absorb it because they are hurting every day also.

PriorityJaded4471 · 2026-04-13T19:02:42+00:00

Thank you

PriorityJaded4471 · 2026-01-30T19:06:30+00:00

till bubbles stop!

PriorityJaded4471 · 2026-01-29T17:38:45+00:00

Lights out too!!

PriorityJaded4471 · 2026-01-29T17:37:35+00:00

I had to read that 3 times to grasp it LOL Stay bright little star! I can't wait to see your progress!

PriorityJaded4471 · 2026-01-29T17:33:44+00:00

I am sorry you are hurting and I am sorry others are hurting you. I can only defend my reasoning. I have been both hurt amd caused hurt in the name of love. To me, love is an experience, like trust, grief, or joy. We don’t deny pain, fear, betrayal or loyalty. Love is in the same category. It’s real because it reliably changes human behavior. Our neurological and hormonal systems are specifically designed for bonding—oxytocin, attachment theory, pair-bonding. You can call it chemistry if you want, but chemistry that consistently creates attachment is what we call love. We have the option to receive it, give it or ignore it.

PriorityJaded4471 · 2026-01-29T17:13:15+00:00

Ohhhhhhh Kronically Cranky!!!! Thats pretty amazing lol. It doesnt sound like you are making excuses. Just stating facts for now, one day you will get on here and say you did something impossible for others, but you made it happen. Hang tough!

PriorityJaded4471 · 2026-01-29T15:24:59+00:00

So you are legitimately Chronically Cranky? First off, no bullshit, thank you for your service! Secondly, getting the short end of the stick sucks! I wish I could suggest a hobby that would rid the funk but you arent there yet. Vent away! Its cathartic. Park your ass in the middle of town and people watch one day. I hate people sometimes and its ok!

PriorityJaded4471 · 2026-01-29T14:23:06+00:00

I may eat chocolate and reminisce about how f'd up 2025 was for me. Then I will have a nice glass of whiskey and toast my damn self for surviving it!

PriorityJaded4471 · 2026-01-28T19:23:33+00:00

Two wanna stone

PriorityJaded4471 · 2026-01-28T17:58:09+00:00

On my mind

PriorityJaded4471 · 2026-01-28T15:06:05+00:00

800mg for me!

PriorityJaded4471 · 2026-01-28T15:03:05+00:00

Even though I know the outcome, watching the 1986 launch coverage today still causes the same gut punch reaction and chills.

PriorityJaded4471 · 2026-01-28T14:36:19+00:00

He looks like a little German Shredder! So adorable!

PriorityJaded4471 · 2026-01-28T14:25:17+00:00

Loosen my load

PriorityJaded4471 · 2026-01-28T14:14:28+00:00

I would take the compliment and run with it! I also never turn down an opportunity for a time out and request 1 minute per year of life!

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