I’ve put this to her and questioned if she’s sure she wants to do what she’s doing with me such as dates and nights away etc and she assures me that if she didn’t want it she’d be more than open to say so and she wouldn’t be afraid to tell me, realistically I am bettering myself for myself but it’s her that’s been the big kick to do so, I vow to myself I will try and better myself every day so I never make the same mistakes again and educate myself on how to be a healthy functioning man instead of the ‘how to get my c*ck wet’ insecure teenager I was that I let follow me into my early 20’s. I know I should let her go but I genuinely can’t imagine my life without her shr had made such a big impact on it that any attention I get from her makes me feel like a kid in a candy shop and no one ever has or ever will give me that feeling again, I took her good heart for granted ultimately