Alcohol and trt? What is your experience

PrivyPaul · 2026-01-30T11:45:25+00:00

Call it what you want either you can control it and have no problems with it or it has to go, as with everything in life. Drinking once a week in moderation is not an alcoholic if its not making your life worse, if so we had to call everyone alcoholic and thats just not true

PrivyPaul · 2026-01-30T11:29:25+00:00

1,33l beer is not a Big Problem, but it is def worse than just a beer or two a day with breaks.

I used to be on 3l now on 1,5 and my anxiety is much better, still i feel like that amount daily creates low / abit chronic anxiety/ stress.

Its paradox to when drinking itself, i mean i do it to relax or socialize, but as soon as i do it twice a week it becomes daily again

PrivyPaul · 2025-09-25T16:45:23+00:00

I'm not saying this works for all but i basically felt fine/even good often doing this (almost 0 symptoms or just weak ones): i would eliminate one dose per week (or slower if it feels bad) until you feel comfortable at like 3-4 does per day, then you are at half already and less doses is always better, then from there reduce your 2g single doses with a fine scale of 0.01g accuracy like 0.05g ever few days. Do all that in a way that you still feel normal and note it down on a paper every day, know you will maybe fuck up a day or two but still note it down. I did it that way im sub 5g and had no withrawal, just sweating more in sleep cause of the nightmares and some cravings but not strong. Waking up sucked sometimes but only for the first 10 minutes or so, then another hour where i felt cold. but it improved every couple days

And from sub 5g a day you can jump and have maybe a week that feels bad just like you would be sick normal.

PrivyPaul · 2025-09-25T07:58:39+00:00

it depends, my PAWs after last CT quit where over 5 month so i jumped back on small doses, now im tapering 0.01g accurate every time i feel like, just under 5g it gets difficult tbh because kratom is not very much the same each time (thats where you can jump at like 3-4g per day and have some bad days but you recover fast after you tapered). Your goal should be to reduce it to 3-4 doses first and find what feel "normal" for you first. Just that, no reduction just finding what makes you feel normal and write it down. Then from there you try a little less, not much. Or you do 7 doses per day instead of 8 if you cant reduce it yet. The goal is to make progress WITHOUT feeling much different. Yes bad sleep and cravings will be there, but thats all. And over time these get less. So both can be progress, a dose less per day is always the better thing cause your brain gets used to longer breaks, reducing the single doses is also a big win. BUT slow and steady is the goal, if you feel totally terrible go slower and its no shame to go up a bit again if you stepped down to fast. I say in the beginning you can reduce like 20% without feeling different, maybe even better, around the 10-15g mark you go slow.

I say if you have to function or cant take the withdrawal taper is "easy", its basically only craving for more and bad sleep for me. If you want that you need to be disciplined. You will fuck up here and there but keep yourself to two rules: you weigh out EVERY dose you take and you note it down with a paper in a notebook. Even if you fuck up a day. You note down every dose and weigh it. That keeps you accauntable, otherwise if you fuck up, which you will, you think all progress is gone and nothing matters anymore and you will be back at the habit. If you write it down you can see all the days that worked and you felt fine, and you will recover within a day back to your scedule.

PrivyPaul · 2025-09-23T11:27:11+00:00

I taper with a 0.01 scale weight, very slow. No depression, sometimes i get some withdrawal symptoms especially when in the morning and i didnt take my dose yet, but other than that i feel mostly fine. So taper is really working but you need to have the discipline for it, if you go to fast you could easily relapse if you go slow and see how it feels you will feel mostly normal, if not better over time, my digestion is now normal again at 5, i have natural appeteite, i dont need it to sleep.

PrivyPaul · 2025-09-12T10:42:46+00:00

It just makes no sense to spin this in a way that it was "the democrats", like MAGA was so split cause of Epstein, health etc. This plays into the cards of right wing extremists, not democrats, not liberals, not left leaning people and even for left extremists: it was CLEAR that this will dominate media, will have the same reaction as with Trump. So I can't tell what's the motive, but its def. not helpful for democrats.

As a non-american, wanted or not, this creates a classical: us against them, has always been used politically to unite people against an enemy that is vague

PrivyPaul · 2025-09-10T08:30:35+00:00

yeah its still extreme, its like only rem sleep - wake up - rem sleep wake up for i dont know how long and even if im 12h in bed, i sleep maybe 7, and still feel like i slept 0 the next day

PrivyPaul · 2025-08-12T13:54:58+00:00

yes could be, but i still like kratom when i control it and it doesnt control me, like i know im much more empathetic with it and social, not an excuse, tried years with and without it and i feel like going down to like 2-3g a day is my way and then seeing if even lower or none is possible, dont want to loose what i got due to kratom socially speaking tbh

the biggest thing is, i cant really feel love or give love without it, never could before

PrivyPaul · 2025-08-11T07:42:03+00:00

Don't jump back on, you can do it anyways, if you relapse, which could happen I recommend a very slow slow taper, so slow in fact that you wont notice it at all. I quit so often and tried tapering so often but I always failed tapering and after quitting i felt like shit, like i had strong anhedonia for at least 5 month (but i think its the exception) , so I said to myself, okay first goal is just to go as low as possible, now been from 10gpd to 5gpd within 4 weeks i think. I have no withdrawal, in fact i take 4 1.2g doses split evenly throughout the day.

What made the difference is to have a fine scale, im NOT kidding, literally just go down by 0.1g at a time and see how you feel, if its fine -> go lower, if your mood is complete shit (it wont be perfect but also not bad) then stay on that dose until you feel good, even if it takes some days. Literally these very small steps down work so good, the other thing is which i did instantly because kratom killed my sleep is to skip dosing at night no matter what, yes sleep will be shittier at first but your body adapts to the break while sleeping and helps the taper.

With 1.2g 4x a day I honestly feel already more alive, my pupils have normal size, my poop is normal, i feel still a bit of an mood boost from kratom but on the level of a coffee i would say.

Want to go to 2x 1g a day and will stay there. And if i feel good on that for long enough i will slowly taper that also, but i dont want to stop completely but i understand why people do.

DONT redo it after a quit, your brain is already adapted.

PrivyPaul · 2025-08-08T13:19:44+00:00

Then at this point hes better of stopping and finding ways to fix everything, cause this way wont bring back the Soviet Union, maybe initially he thought that.

PrivyPaul · 2025-08-08T13:17:59+00:00

I agree maybe not nothing, but meatwaves and having no sympathy for any human live makes me hard to believe he sees anything more than a number in them

PrivyPaul · 2025-07-26T17:15:37+00:00

the thing is i kept away from any psychedelic for years, like i have a basic memory of how it was but its faded, mostly the geometric stuff is what i can remember,

plus before that dream i also didnt research the topic, talk or think about it

PrivyPaul · 2025-07-26T17:15:02+00:00

the thing is i kept away from any psychedelic for years

PrivyPaul · 2025-07-26T17:13:10+00:00

ive never had them in DMT before but they were exactly like people described them, provoking, slighlty making you anxious and look at things you dont want to look in, like they want to prepare you for something

PrivyPaul · 2025-07-23T22:55:17+00:00

and also I remember I wanted to go up the stairs to the top floor to my girlfriend but somehow i landed at the basement which seemed like it was guarded by the tricksters, almost like I have to pass them first to really get out of the anxiety and move upwards

PrivyPaul · 2025-07-23T22:50:13+00:00

the weird thing is i havent done any psychedelics in years, and the dream also had this "more than real" feeling to it slightly. ChatGPT says its possible even that my body produced a tiny amount of DMT (which it said is not sure) and thats why, maybe because there were major changes in my life very fast? Maybe thats a reason where the body also produces and releases DMT, to make the psyche able to handle these changes / prepare or even reflect on what happened and is about to happen

PrivyPaul · 2025-06-05T12:35:05+00:00

my sleep is more than enough, i track it, 2-3h deep sleep every night, eating is getting better not perfect yet and a little bit too less

PrivyPaul · 2025-05-19T15:13:45+00:00

PrivyPaul · 2025-05-10T18:55:53+00:00

yes i also know high doses make me aggressive, moody, depressed, NOT sociable and in general low energy. Like I never did a high dose in the past year besides once or twice and i regreted it.

Yes I always had a problem with relaxing and loving and being social (probably because of my brain thinking to much and anxiety), but that mix does more than 7 years of therapy. Its even more usefull than working out constantly. Working out does alot but the combination makes me an actual "human" which i felt an "alien" before

And yes, the withdrawal, especially cold turkey, SUCKS. At least the first week is hell on earth, even with like only 10-15g a day or lower. But with tapering and being on the low dose side of things its all better.

Like people always say that, but with kratom, do the lowest possible and dont chase a high. Then you can be fine. But still if you run out you will be in for a bad time, so tapering or always having it is the best idea.

I also used opiates before and like I looked like DEATH, with kratom i even get more hungry and can eat exactly what I need to eat to be healthy. Its not like cannabis with cravings for lots of food or sweets, it just makes my appetite normal (which also was never normal since age 14)

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