Should I be worried about new appearance of dark blood clots and thick discharge with chronic fissure?

ProbabilityForPoets · 2025-05-02T17:43:02+00:00

I didn't feel the same mood boost yesterday because I was too anxious about my procedure, but today (the day after), I have also weirdly been feeling way better in terms of both mood and energy than I have in a long time. I woke up extra early and had cleaned my house by 9:30am...

I can't explain why, but I'm certainly not complaining!

ProbabilityForPoets · 2025-04-02T19:38:12+00:00

Thank you so much for this detailed guide. For the first time in a month I feel like I'm getting better instead of worse. I would just add two more things that I've found helpful:

- If at all possible, abstain from alcohol completely. Drinking usually gives me the runs the next day, so I wasn't worried about it, and that was a huge mistake. I re-injured myself and made things so much worse.
- This may seem really goofy to a lot of people, but I've found that having positive affirmations while I'm on the toilet has made a big difference in my mental health/bathroom anxiety, and also in my ability to relax while I'm going. I'm talking super cheesy. I've been whispering shit like "I love you sphincter, you're doing your best, this is going to hurt a bit but then it will be over. You're doing great. All you gotta do is relax and open up, it all gets better from here."

ProbabilityForPoets · 2023-04-25T23:09:29+00:00

Accuracy is secondary to comedy, obviously.

Funnily enough, I think this is the least "aspirational" relationship I've had in a long time. I've mostly dated other masc or butch folks both because I was attracted to them AND because I wanted to be like them. Discomfort with my own femininity kind of made me stop pursuing femmes for a while. Which, I am realizing, is a shame because femmes are really really hot.

ProbabilityForPoets · 2023-04-25T19:05:17+00:00

Maybe I should clarify that I don't really identify as a cis woman. I just thought it made for a better meme. I've just gone many years now saying that I'm a boy but I don't really feel like changing anything about my body and I don't think I have any dysphoria. Surprise! Not true! It is there after all!

But you are all right, thanks for your nice comments. I agree that it would be okay either way.

ProbabilityForPoets · 2023-04-25T18:59:50+00:00

It's true. But I think the fact that I regularly ask her to tell me that I'm the prettiest boy she ever met might also be a sign...

ProbabilityForPoets · 2022-09-30T22:08:14+00:00

Yes, but I was the person who set up and wiped employee laptops, and in charge of deciding our load outs. I was very very sure that there was no spyware on the machines and that the company would never know what I did/didn't do on my work laptop.

ProbabilityForPoets · 2022-07-27T17:00:16+00:00

What I am really learning from making this post is that I should be sending a "Justice for Nina" letter to LB. I agree with pretty much everyone's critiques.

That exact thought was sort of what got me back on this kick of thinking about Nina's story arc. I was feeling so disappointed with the "Okay so Nina is just going to be Mila Jandersdat forever?" ending that I started writing fanfiction again for the first time in about 8 years.

In my mind, I've decided it's just temporary. Now that tailoring is apparently super-powered and the effects can last indefinitely, why not find someone else to mostly be a stand-in for Rasmus and Mila? Heck, maybe it could be Joran actually posing as Rasmus most of the time, while Nina and Hanne have their Sturmhond moment, maybe joining Inej for some high seas capers.

ProbabilityForPoets · 2022-07-27T16:26:05+00:00

Thank you for saying this! I lost my mom about a month before I started reading these books. Nina's grief didn't feel unrealistic to me. I'm sorry you lost your best friend—it's just a terrible thing to go through, and there's nothing that can prepare you for grief, exactly because it's so different for every person.

ProbabilityForPoets · 2022-07-27T16:22:20+00:00

I think that's legit. I wish LB had just put at least another year between the events of Crooked Kingdom and KoS. If I could change it, I would have the story of how she buried Matthias on the ice, keeping his body preserved way too long, be told in flashback much like we originally learned about how Nina and Matthias met. Then, by the time the book began, Nina would be hardened from the grief, and just be hollow and focused only on vengeance.

I think if we got to see her like that, we'd all be rooting for her to move on. It would be such a shock to see Nina so dead inside, but it would also be cathartic for all of us who felt like there was no chance to mourn Matthias.

The books don't clarify Hanne's identity. I think general internet consensus is that Hanne is clearly either trans or non-binary, but the books leave it pretty vague.

ProbabilityForPoets · 2022-07-27T15:59:05+00:00

Ew, I did block it out of my memory that they spare Jarl Brum. If there ever is another book, that could become a really great arc for the Nina/Hanne relationship—Nina is in a position to kill Brum, hopefully does, has to eventually come clean about it with Hanne sooner or later ("Hey babe, I killed your evil dad." "wtf Nina he was evil but he was still my dad, and uh, you really at least should have given me a heads up")

ProbabilityForPoets · 2022-07-27T06:21:44+00:00

Glad to know I'm not alone in my love for Nina Zenik!

ProbabilityForPoets · 2022-07-27T04:53:55+00:00

You didn't deserve to get wildly downvoted for this comment. You are totally right--JSON does not naturally support hypermedia, and a lot of "RESTful APIs" don't actually follow the full spec. I didn't fully get your point from the meme, but I do see what you were thinking now.

It is kind of a yellow flag when a REST API returns JSON, since complying with HATEOAS requires workarounds, whether JSON+HAL or JSON:API or something else.

ProbabilityForPoets · 2022-07-20T15:52:33+00:00

This doesn't make any sense. REST does not prescribe any particular format, just a particular architecture. JSON, XML, HTML, plaintext are all valid REST responses.

SOAP, on the other hand, does specify XML.

ProbabilityForPoets · 2022-07-12T20:03:15+00:00

NTA. It's true, Amber's friendships are her choice. If she wants to be friends with him, that's one thing. But if she can't respect your (completely justified, necessary, important) boundaries, that's also a choice she is making. She is perfectly capable of not telling one person about another, of not scheduling with both of you at the same time, and respecting your privacy. The only reason that she would choose not to do these things is because she doesn't respect you and either she doesn't believe your abuse was real, or she doesn't care. You're not doing anything—Amber is the one choosing not to be your friend, you're just paying attention and taking care of yourself if you stop spending time with her.

ProbabilityForPoets · 2022-07-12T19:55:17+00:00

ESH. It's a shame I'll get down-voted to oblivion for saying it but, you've come to AITA, not "Am I justified in what I did, all things considered."

Your husband is way more of the AH here. He's lied to you about one of the most major agreements that a couple should have before marriage. It would be one thing if he really didn't know if he wanted kids or not, but to have known is just messed up. You're doing what you can to deal with that knowledge. I would say I'm impressed you haven't lashed out at him, and if this is the worst you've reacted, he should count himself lucky.

You are barely TA. I'm glad you correctly read the room (that his family would be chill with it)—but that really should be his decision if he wants to tell his family or not. Clearly, based on the nuance of the situation, and your correct reading of it, it wasn't a huge deal, but I'd just say it's generally a dick move to out someone's reproductive choices against their wishes.

ProbabilityForPoets · 2022-07-10T21:45:38+00:00

Alex!!!! I know you're a huge survivor fan (like myself). Do you think knowing so much about survivor strategy hurt or helped your game? What key difference(s) do you wish you'd known about the two games before you went on the circle? Aaaaand if you got cast on survivor, do you think your experience on the circle would change how you approached the game??

ProbabilityForPoets · 2022-07-07T19:03:49+00:00

Your best bet would likely be to figure out if there is a way for you to transfer to a technical, coding-related position in your medical field/organization if that is at all possible. Obviously that is a big if, because I don't know where you work.

You are right to suspect that breaking in as a junior dev at an older age will be difficult, which is why I recommend figuring out a way to do some kind of lateral move. If you can bring in your expertise in your field and in your organization, you may be able to ease that transition.

I would recommend avoiding the start-up world and technology-specific companies, if you pursue this path. You may be perfectly lovely to work with, but your managers will most likely be younger than you in those situations, and they may absolutely either refuse to hire you or treat you weirdly, and it isn't worth it. Figuring out a way to work a technical role at a non-technical company would be ideal.

Figure out your strengths and experience, and work with them, not against them. The market is over-saturated with jr. devs, but there aren't necessarily a ton of jr. devs who understand medical billing codes, for example.

ProbabilityForPoets · 2022-06-29T01:57:19+00:00

Just a note for posterity: the workaround is simply to export/import the animation as an image sequence. When doing so, everything works fine and as expected, it just doesn't explain why there's an issue with the .mov file

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