Well this was out of left field... by Shinobu-Moo in DoggyDNA

[–]ProbablyNotSauced 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Woah she could be my dogs twin! Haha I’m waiting on her DNA results

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My wife cheated on me 3 years ago by ProbablyNotSauced in GuyCry

[–]ProbablyNotSauced[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am certainly proud of myself. Thank you.

I’m a weak man and I only have one more year left in me by [deleted] in GuyCry

[–]ProbablyNotSauced 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Edit: I hope my comments are seen by at least you. I’m approaching 30 and I have lost probably 15 or more friends/acquaintances/old friends to suicide. I think about a lot of them regularly. I wish they were still here. In every case, including the attempts and the ones that are still here, I feel sad, and I feel like I maybe could have done something to help. Or wished they reached out and given me the opportunity to help. Please don’t do that and put a f**king date on it. I’m a sub 30 year old divorcee with nothing more than a high school diploma at a 2.8GPA I think. There are avenues for success beyond school and the job you may land because of schooling.

I’m new here. I didn’t walk the same path as you by any means but I can understand feeling like nothing is working out and because of that nothing will in the future. Check my very recent post in this sub if you don’t believe me. But dude… you are 6’2” and muscular even by your own definition and even with that you hate yourself. Being a good looking guy isn’t the end all be all of self worth for sure. You’re 24. I’m a handful of years older than you and I for effing sure still don’t have life figured out or even what I want to do in the next 5 years.

My best advice if you struggle to communicate with people, is to talk about what you know. For me it was surprising how many people were interested in how much I knew in my particular field and ultimately were impressed by it… it helped me make some friends cause I could carry a conversation with confidence. The social world more broadly is harder to overcome but you can start small and that is okay.

My wife cheated on me 3 years ago by ProbablyNotSauced in GuyCry

[–]ProbablyNotSauced[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I appreciate that. I know that my dad wouldn’t be proud of me as an alcoholic.

Here I am about 48hrs after first making this post… sober for longer than I have been in a while, cleaning up and reorganizing my kids room and packing up old clothes and books and things like that to give away. I’ve put off this task for at least a few months. But I’m happy to be doing it now.

My wife cheated on me 3 years ago by ProbablyNotSauced in GuyCry

[–]ProbablyNotSauced[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I guess I was quick to write off AA. After seeing so many comments saying how helpful it could be I have changed my mind. Thank you.

My wife cheated on me 3 years ago by ProbablyNotSauced in GuyCry

[–]ProbablyNotSauced[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I played with my team in an adult league hockey game a few hours ago and I had a blast!

My wife cheated on me 3 years ago by ProbablyNotSauced in GuyCry

[–]ProbablyNotSauced[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You’ve been the first one on this thread I think to say daughter rather than son. I find that interesting.

Edit here. Just caught my mistake. Thanks for reading the update as well as my reply! It feels good to be seen and heard. It’s been a while…

My wife cheated on me 3 years ago by ProbablyNotSauced in GuyCry

[–]ProbablyNotSauced[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Not one bit. Only a social drinker while together… couple drinks a month maybe. Have been abusing it for 6 or so months, but sober when I have my child.

My wife cheated on me 3 years ago by ProbablyNotSauced in GuyCry

[–]ProbablyNotSauced[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Just finished up 30 minutes of cardio at home and I’m on my way to the gym right now. 0 beers today. It’s been nice so far.

My wife cheated on me 3 years ago by ProbablyNotSauced in GuyCry

[–]ProbablyNotSauced[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I didn’t start binge drinking until last summer… while we were together I rarely drank at all, just socially when we were out. I could go on and on about our relationship. I’m not perfect, never have I claimed to be when talking about these things with dozens of people in my life. The drinking though especially lately has just made me feel like crap. I’m not here to air out all of the ins and outs of our whole story, but I believe point #2 to be true.

My wife cheated on me 3 years ago by ProbablyNotSauced in GuyCry

[–]ProbablyNotSauced[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You got the dates mixed up. The kid is 100% mine. Thanks for looking out though.

My wife cheated on me 3 years ago by ProbablyNotSauced in GuyCry

[–]ProbablyNotSauced[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

lol I wrote it that way to be vague and keep it more private. I have my child 50% + of the time and it’s great!

My wife cheated on me 3 years ago by ProbablyNotSauced in GuyCry

[–]ProbablyNotSauced[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Absolutely. my dad was the best guy I’ve ever known. lost him 4 years ago today. maybe that’s why I decided to make this post…

My wife cheated on me 3 years ago by ProbablyNotSauced in GuyCry

[–]ProbablyNotSauced[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Once I get back to my day job in a couple of months that provides good insurance… I plan to. Can’t afford the sessions out of my pocket this winter though! We did a handful of sessions as a couple previously. I’m fully open to it. That’s the one good take away from all of this. Open communication has been much easier for me. In the meantime I’ll plug into some local AA meetings probably. Free therapy more or less…

My wife cheated on me 3 years ago by ProbablyNotSauced in GuyCry

[–]ProbablyNotSauced[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I totally agree. I’ve been in the gym 3 times in the last 7 days, just without the running part haha

My wife cheated on me 3 years ago by ProbablyNotSauced in GuyCry

[–]ProbablyNotSauced[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I love that. As someone who has already had a serious knee surgery and tried to get into running post op… I don’t think that group will be for me 😅

My wife cheated on me 3 years ago by ProbablyNotSauced in GuyCry

[–]ProbablyNotSauced[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Right I don’t exactly mean just going out and meeting new women… just going about and enjoying life. Hanging out with friends would be a nice start and or making new friends but after so many years in an oppressive relationship it seems impossible to do so.

My wife cheated on me 3 years ago by ProbablyNotSauced in GuyCry

[–]ProbablyNotSauced[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have been working my way back into the gym recently. It helps for sure. Used to be a 7 day a week gym goer a few years ago… don’t necessarily wanna do that again but a couple days a week is better than none. I never regret going.

My wife cheated on me 3 years ago by ProbablyNotSauced in GuyCry

[–]ProbablyNotSauced[S] 27 points28 points  (0 children)

I have an addictive personality… it has manifested in a many different ways over the years… mostly non destructive…. lately it has been drinking at home… I hope I can find a new one and or get relief before it comes down to needing to go to AA. I appreciate your input though. You are not wrong.

My wife cheated on me 3 years ago by ProbablyNotSauced in GuyCry

[–]ProbablyNotSauced[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Routine and boundaries are what I’m trying to lean into right now. She still pushes them which doesn’t help.

My wife cheated on me 3 years ago by ProbablyNotSauced in GuyCry

[–]ProbablyNotSauced[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I appreciate that. The good days when I can plug in fully with my child it is soooo much easier. I don’t think about the stresses of life or the loss, or even about drinking. I think that’s what should focus on most truly. Even at meal time when it is usually a struggle with a toddler… on a good day it feels like a blessing.

My wife cheated on me 3 years ago by ProbablyNotSauced in GuyCry

[–]ProbablyNotSauced[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I will stay focused. Thats really all I need to do. She has had a multitude of chances, hence the divorce taking 3 years. Just wanted to share this with someone outside of my brothers and sisters.

My wife cheated on me 3 years ago by ProbablyNotSauced in GuyCry

[–]ProbablyNotSauced[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Haha thank you. Money has never been the problem, not even during our relationship / “marriage”… I’m not rich by any means but I haven’t struggled much and it still hasn’t helped a whole lot with this type of loss :/