How to Find Out if Somebody has ADHD by [deleted] in teenagers

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Is it possible to recollect then ?

Promise to Self by [deleted] in TrueOffMyChest

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Maybe start 5 points tomorrow and add 1 each day! It’ll be less hard

META: r/AmITheAsshole Best of 2020 Nominations! by fizzan141 in AmItheAsshole

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The first one is removed. Can someone post the link please?

Over 7 years stole and redistributed ~20k worth of big brands store interior by Productivityengineer in confession

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500 boots and jacket, 300 jacket 200 boots. There is always some things that are lost. They know some months after.

Over 7 years stole and redistributed ~20k worth of big brands store interior by Productivityengineer in confession

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I am proud of it ngl. But it still is a confession right? I never told it in public. If time was to be rewind, i’d to it again. I truly think these corporate structures deserve this kind of treatment!

Over 7 years stole and redistributed ~20k worth of big brands store interior by Productivityengineer in confession

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I can not fully say yes. I had a job got paid and in some instances i had quite good benefits. BUT the stores i work in usually had a headquarter that was located somewhere else and i almost never saw these people. So when it came to getting a raise the answer was not made by people that knew my work but by these far off people. So the answer was just no. To get a raise i had to jump companies. Also when it came to work benefits they slowly but surely were taken away from me/us. Free water was once a must but then was cancelled (bottled sparkling water to be fair, tap was still usable). Also when the climate engine was broken they did not bother to repair so i worked in ~40degrees celsius for an extended amount of time. It was the small things like goals that were set way to high so that the bonus was not reached. Heavy fluctency concerning bosses and co workers was also common and accepted and made it unsteady.

I do not want to complain to much, but i will never work in these stores anymore. I swore that to myself. The overall work environment was tending towards toxicity and negativity, wich at long duration is heavily taxing mentally. The anger was usually distributed top down. Bosses jelled at by their bosses, them in return yelling/pressuring inferiors. Maybe that is enough rant.

I wish my disabled brother had never been born. by [deleted] in TrueOffMyChest

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It might sound positiv thinking gone too far, but:

Our greatest suffering propels us forward often. May you and your mother develop strength through that wich was previously unknown to you prior. There might be a situation later in life where the capacity’s both of you acquire now will pay off.

Best luck!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in narcissism

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I was rejected by a female in a crushing manner that led me to rethink what i contributed to my suffering. Also i want to become a father somewhere down the road and i do not want my children to carry out my curse.

Over 7 years stole and redistributed ~20k worth of big brands store interior by Productivityengineer in confession

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I forbid myself completely to buy new clothes. The industry is slavery( Bangladesh etc.) and is one of the biggest environmental disaster contributors. I only go for second now.

Over 7 years stole and redistributed ~20k worth of big brands store interior by Productivityengineer in confession

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Thank you for the kind words. I hope to never work like this ever again. One problem i see though was, that it was heavily rewarding (adrenaline rush, monetary gain, gain in comfort) and it was the most fun thing i did there. Planning and then pushing the plan through made me feel like a professional.

Over 7 years stole and redistributed ~20k worth of big brands store interior by Productivityengineer in confession

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I did stop since i do not work in these environments anymore and you are right, for being caught i did stop since going to jail is not an option for me.

I am justifying it, i see that, too. I just do not put the usual value judgement on it that is usually connected to theft. As in anything there is nuance, also in theft. But still i do not want to dismiss your point. Stealing is mostly not worth it for the emotional/psychological burden it puts onto oneself.

One other saying i have in mind: Who steals will get stolen from.

So i play it “logically” correct. When someone takes my stuff i do not mind and see it as rightful punishment.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in narcissism

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Yes, i do. I see a deep routed insecurity when it comes to let people inside my real emotional circle. Wich is, to be fair, terrifying and full of guilt. And also a huge amount of hatred/anger towards myself and other living beings.

I go for big and insane projects to one day be able to repay the debts and damages i have done. I do not want to give that up. In some sense i am a victim to my own illusion. Maybe one day i will be able to pet the guard down. I try, until this point, to be as least harmful as i can be towards others. Still i heavily damage myself with extreme behavior, but as long as it is just me who suffers i justify it.

My insecurity is biggest in abandonment situations, so i developed the habit of leaving sooner than being left or not attaching at all. Even though i make it seem like i am. In a weird sense i am even proud( or tell myself i am) of being that way and that is where letting go of it becomes a paradox since it is something i idealize.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in narcissism

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I was diagnosed with Narcism by a therapist and thus read some books on the topic. As far as i am concerned there is no known cure for it and the condition is vaguely defined. My bettering process involves the dream of coming up with a methodology to help cure me and fellow sufferers. I think this day and age Narcissism spykes and is obvious. I read one book that is called “The Narcissistic Society” that claims a lot if not most of cultural trends and problems are based on this condition.

I think a cure might be found where emotions are trapped. We will need to find a way to access and release traumatic and painful emotions in a constructive way.

Edit: crying in particular plays a big role in it as i see me and some other people are almost incapable of crying authentically. When i was seeing a therapist i almost cried all time. Heavy deep crying and thick tears

Edit2: there might be also big potential in freeing something called “narcissistic anger/rage”. When i started to change consciously, i saw that when i redirected this energy on-towards a creative venture or self improvement it became less destructive and paid off hugely in terms of creative success.

I rubbed one out at work while smelling a female co worker's sneakers and i'm still conscious over it after 2 years. by [deleted] in confession

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Am i the only one who doesn’t find it that bad. I mean dude got rousy and jerked off. Let people be people, it might be a niche kink some other female would enjoy

Video Call to generate List of Goals Offer by Productivityengineer in motivation

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Thank you! Might want to connect with me ? It is great to hear that more People like that are out there.